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Not that I'll likely ever get a custom scent, but I've been thinking about one in the last few days. It's kind of like a song I can't get out of my head. It would be like a more masculine version of Snow White. I'm imagining a pure white mixture of rice cream (is there such a thing?) and coconut milk, infused with ginger, with a dash of nutmeg and cardamom on top, possibly a hint of clove. It's in a wooden bowl with a scattering of pine boughs around it. All of this is outside on a blustery, snowy day. Snow, rice cream, coconut, almond, ginger, spices, turbinado sugar, balsam fir. Maybe some woodsmoke, or frankincense, just a hint of something to give it a bit of a rugged edge. Ooh, maybe some cherry too? Just a little bit, not enough to stand out a whole lot. It's possible some kind of floral would be good, but I don't know florals well enough to say which one. It would be something between Snow White, Jolasveinar, and Cloister Graveyard In The Snow.

June 1, 2010

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Wishlist (Bpal/ Bptp)

Updated FEBRARY 2012 Bolded = really really really want! Bolded = really want! Italics = pending/ on the way Strikethrough = received Would Love Decants of these TALs: Abundance Oil Anthelion - Thank you, Frolic! Bastet's Laughter Love Oil 7 Milk & Honey Senelion Oil White Light Would Love Bottles of: Alice 10ml only (any fill level) ANTIQUE LACE! A.ntiq.ue Lac.e! (even an empty 5ml) THANK YOU DARK ALICE! Antique Lace 10ml (any fill level) Ara.bian Da.nce (partial) B.eaver M.oon 2005 (good label) Blackbear Moon (empty/ partial) Blue Pumpkin Floss proto (partial) Boo 2010 (empty, partial) Bow & Crown of Conquest Candy Corn Coated Candy Apple (empty/ partial) Clockwork Couture Male (partial) Confectionary proto!!! Devil's Night 2006 (partial) D.orian Egg Nog 2010 (partial) Fenris Wolf v2 Golletes (empty) Halloween L.A. (empty) Halloween SF (empty) Holiday Stress Relief bath oil (1-3oz.) L'Eau de L'Engouement Bath Oil L'Essence de L'Engouement Perfume Oil Marquis de Carabas (partial ok) Mourning Lace Panther Moon (empty/ partial) Parker Lily* (empty/ partial/ any! - don't I know how to dream?) Phyllocrania Paradoxa v1 (partial/ full) Pink Lace Pumpkin IV '09 (low level partial, 1-2ml) Pumpkin Latte Pumpkin Stout bath oil (partial/ 1-2oz decant) Sky City Before (partial) Snow White 2003 perfume oil Sno.w Wh.ite 2004 perfume oil Snow White 2005 perfume oil The Solder (partial) Tat.tered La.ce Time Does Not Bring Relief (partial) Treatsy bath oil Ticksy bath oil XCDL13 Would Love Decants - LE/ Rares: (Not in a rush to obtain; only interested in swapping for some of these) Alana Patel Anactoria '10 Angeronalia Arachnina, The Spider Girl (CD) Atrocious Attic Autumn Moon of the Mirror Stand B340 Bakeneko Banned in Boston Beanman & Beanwoman Prepare to Attack the Vagina Beaver Moon 2005 Berenice Bette Noir Bijoux Y'ha-Nthlei Blackbear Moon Blossoms in Springtime Body, Remember But Men Loved Darkness Rather Than Light Candles Moon The Changeling Chaste Moon '05 (orig.) Cheshire Moon Clarimonde vamp. '09 Cloister Graveyard in the Snow Corazon (ha!) Thank you Dark Alice!!! Crumpet Rebellion Dancing Koi Daya (Nov. '09 Will Call frimp) Dark Chocolate, Whiskey, and Cognac Truffle Ded Moroz Yule '09 Devil's Night '09 Dia (Aphrodite/ Lupercalia '09) shouldn't have gotten rid of mine Door Dreamland '05 Dreamland '07 Egg Moon The Elephantine Colossus (would swap for) Enlightenment of the Courtesan Jigokudayu Enkhespalos Eshe, A Vision of Life-in-Death (CD) The Fairies Forbidding Foyer Formula 54 (I know, I know, ha!) Gods of Intercourse The Gorrobble Gun Moll Haunted Palace '05 Haunted Palace '07 Harigata II Harikata Harimise Hunter Ichabod Crane ('08 Weenie) II No Hayata Kills the Nue at the Imperial Palace In the Forest The Infernal Lover (creamy, non-red musk version) The Infernal Lover (red musk version) Jólasveinar Kusunoki Tamonmaru Masatsura Surprising a Fox Ghost Lair of Nefarious Misdeeds Atmosphere Spray Lamia v3 (ha!) Lenore '05 Lenore '07 Lick It '05 Lick It Again '06 Lick It Like You Mean It '08 Looking Glass bath oil Loosening of the Obi Lord Ruthven vamp. '09 Lump of Coal (ha!) Lust v7 MVJBA: Spring Training MVJBA Summer Summoning Spectacular Maiden v2 (ha!) Maltese Cross (CD) Marcilla (CD) Marquis de Carabas (would swap for) Melainis Menacing Ionospheric Research Instrument Minamoto No Yorimitsu Cuts At the Earth Spider Miskatonic University v3 (ha!) Moana Mourning Lace Nanny Ashtoreth Needlework Nig.ht's Brid.ge Nightmarchers v5 Olis.bos Op.uhi Ov.al Po.rtrait P0.13 PX79 Parker Lily (would swap for) Pink Lace Phyllocrania Paradoxa v1 Perchta Pe.rilous Pa.rlor, The Poe Pi.nk Mo.od Pumpkin II 2007 (tobacco, champa flower, carnation, and tonka) S.amhain '04 Samhain '07 Sa.ra Pe.zzini S.et v3 Se.verin (discon'd GC) Shivering Boy, The '09 Yule *SINGLE NOTES (listed at bottom)* Sky City Before Snow Angel (either year) Snow Bunny '05 Snow Bunny '08 Snow White 2003 perfume oil Sno.w W.hite 2004 perfume oil Snow White 2005 perfume oil The Sorrow of Love Staged Moon Landing Story Time at Dark Delicacies Storyville (I know, I know) Street Festival Summer Summoning Spectacular MVJBA The Ta-Ta Tattered Lace Theodosius, The Legerdemain (CD) Tiki Queen Time Does Not Bring Relief Under the Harvest Moon Unveiled Vasakasajja The Velvets Variety of Pleasing Amusements The Vine White Phoenix Witchblade Wulric, the Wolfman (CD) XCDL13 Yule Cat '09 Yürei Would Love Imps - GCs/ GC Unimpables: Against Idleness and Mischief (Mad Tea Party) Anne Bonny (Bewitching Brews) Aperotos Eros (Ars Amatoria) Aremata-Popoa (Atomic Luau Lounge) Aureus (Bewitching Brews) Beer From the Marsh Woman's Brewery (Marchen) Bread-and-Butter-Fly (Mad Tea Party) Carnal (Ars Amatoria) Cloister Graveyard in the Snow (Salon) Coyote (Excolo) Crib Girls (The District) - tester is fine! De Sade (discon'd GC) will ALWAYS gladly accept more!!! Desdemona (Illyria) Dorian (Sin & Salvation) will ALWAYS gladly accept more!!! Ehecatl (Excolo) Emma (The District) Fallen (Sin & Salvation) Flora (The District) Golden Wave (Atomic Luau Lounge) High-Strung Daisies (Mad Tea Party) Hunter Incantation (Bewitching Brews) Josie (The District) Lilith (Excolo) Lulu (The District) Marquis de Carabas (would swap for) Moonshine and Mist (Marchen) The Night-Raven (Marchen) Oblivion (Sin & Salvation) Old Demons of the First Class (Marchen) Pahoehoe (Atomic Luau Lounge) Paramatman (Sin & Salvation) Pollution (Good Omens) Polynesian Pop (Atomic Luau Lounge) Prurience (Ars Amatoria) Prunella (Marchen) Nanny Ashtoreth Red Tide (Atomic Luau Lounge) Sed Non Satiata (Ars Amatoria) Severin - AGED for comparison (discon'd GC) Screeching Parrot (Atomic Luau Lounge) Sybaris (Wanderlust) Trevor Bruttenholm (Hellboy) Whoso List to Hunt (Ars Amatoria) Wolf's Heart (Bewitching Brews) BPTP Goods I Covet: Bath Oils: Treat | Tricksy | Pumpkin Stout Claw Polish: Croquet | Maiden | Robotic Scarab | Sed Non Satiata | Smokestack Soaps!: ANY! Snake Oil | Snow Glass Apples Goblin Squirts: Cathouse | Down the Rabbit Hole | Okiya | Saloon #10 | Boot Hill Atmo Sprays: Boot Hill | Citadel of Awesome | L'Estate | The Path of Dreams Apparel: Carnaval Noir: Babydoll V-Neck - small Carnaval Diabolique: Babydoll V-Neck - small Drink Me Eat Me: Girlie Crew Neck - small *** Hunter Moon heather green ringer tee- small *** White Rabbit scent locket Would Love Decants/Testers of these SINGLE NOTES: Single Note: Ambergris Single Note: Anise Single Note: Bergamot Single Note: Black Amber Single Note: Blood Orange Single Note: Blue Lilac Single Note: Calamus Single Note: Carnation Single Note: Cherry Blossom Single Note: Coffee Bean Single Note: Daffodil Single Note: Dandelion Single Note: D'Anjou Pear Single Note: Dark Myrrh Single Note: East African Black Patchouli Single Note: Egyptian Amber Single Note: Egyptian Musk Single Note: Fig Single Note: Frangipani Single Note: Frankincense Single Note: Heliotrope Single Note: Hyssop Single Note: Indonesian Red Patchouli Single Note: Light Myrrh Single Note: Lotus Single Note: Mimosa Single Note: Neroli Single Note: Orange Blossom Single Note: Peony Single Note: Pikaki Single Note: Plumeria Single Note: Red Ginger Single Note: Red Mysor(e) Sandalwood Single Note: Roman Chamomile Single Note: Rose Geranium Single Note: Saffron Single Note: Siberian Musk Single Note: Stargazer Lily Single Note: Tonka Bean Single Note: Tuberose Single Note: Vanilla Bean Single Note: Violet Single Note: White Musk Single Note: White Sandalwood Single Note: Ylang Ylang Bolded = really really really want! Bolded = really want! Italics = pending/ on the way Strikethrough = received My current faves: (ideas of scents/notes I love) *Antique Lace* A Bachelor's Dog Beaver'Versary* Boomslang Creature Feature DORIAN!* (fresh or aged) -- Can never get enough Dorian! <3 <3 <3 Flowering Chrysanthemums Glowing Vulva* Hanerot Halalu Hellhound On My Trail* L'Estate Le Père Fouettard Mme. Moriarty Osiris v4 Sacrifice Smoky Moon Snake Charmer Res. Sugar Moon Velvet Tiki *XCDL13* * = wouldn't mind gettin' more of

devilot

May 25, 2010

BPAL to Avoid (DB scents)

Nearly Anything with Dragon or Blood in the title, but additionally: Serpent's Kiss Diabolus Seething with passion, yet utterly cold-blooded. Dragon's blood, vetivert and spice. Blood Rose Rappaccini's Garden Sensual, robust, and silken: voluptuous red rose bursting with lascivious red wine and sultry dragon's blood resin. Wrath Sin & Salvation A scent aflame with rage, swirling in the red haze of hatred: dragon's blood spiked with black pepper, clove, and cinnamon. Tintagel Wanderlust According to legend, the birthplace of King Arthur. The scent of a castle's great hall in the midst of joyous feasting. Spicy mulled wine flowing through the musky heat, warm leather and bright clash of armor, the damp branches of Cornish hawthorn, blackthorn, juniper, English elm and bayberry, and the magical tingle of dragon's blood resin. Ladon Ars Draconis The hundred-headed dragon that guards the garden of the Hesperides: dragon’s blood resin, golden apple, apple blossom, white musk and hyacinth. Surprisingly Okay? The Great Red Dragon and the Woman Clothed With the Sun The Salon , William Blake. Daemonorops, vanilla, Indian sandalwood, Mexican copal, hyssop, muguet, sweet pea, amber, hazelwood, galbanum, hiba wood, and orchid.

May 25, 2010

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Non-Bpal/ Bptp Wishes

devilot

May 24, 2010

devilot's blah-g

Notes: Good/ Bad

Notes of FAIL  <img src="http://www.bpal.org/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/00000020.gif" style="vertical-align:middle" emoid="" border="0" alt="00000020.gif" />  bamboo: horrific soap cedar: amp amp amp champagne: BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD cloves: while I like it, my skin CRAZY AMPS cloves, must be barely there to work for me honey: Hony Mone is all wrong, ALL wrong on me jasmine: something about the lab's jasmine note rubs me the wrong way, and it doesn't help that I amp it Jazz Funeral (Ars Moriendi): goes sour on me patchouli: my skin über-amps patchouli to the point it obscures most other notes rose: usually sour on me, but not always vetiver: unless it's barely there certain WINE notes: Delphi, Glühwein, Kali SOUR on me (LadyMacB & Fairy Wine are good, though!)  Notes of WIN!   amber: some work, some turn bad powdery carnation: leather: love it well-blended (but I amp it like whoa) musk: red, Creature Feature musks, Dorian, Ivanushka, Hunter Moon '07 etc., haven't found one that hasn't worked so far! (White musk isn't always great, but doable) sandalwood: tobacco: LOVE LOVE LOVE! Not the cherry-ish tobacco, but good ol' delicious, slightly sweet tobacco. vanilla: a la Antique Lace, Love's Philosophy, Dorian, etc.  My current faves: (ideas of scents/notes I love) Antique Lace* A Bachelor's Dog* Bat of Wealth Bat of Virtue Beaver'Versary Boomslang Creature Feature Dorian* (fresh) -- Can never get enough Dorian! <3 <3 <3 Flowering Chrysanthemums *Glowing Vulva* Hanerot Halalu L'Estate Le Père Fouettard* Smoky Moon Snake Charmer Res. Sugar Moon Velvet Tiki * = wouldn't mind gettin' more of <img src="style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/icon_wink.gif" style="vertical-align:middle" emoid="" border="0" alt="icon_wink.gif" />

devilot

May 23, 2010

Centzon Totochtin

The Four Hundred divine rabbits of the Aztec pantheon that preside over parties and drunkenness. Bittersweet Mexican cocoa with rum, red wine, and a scent redolent of sacrificial blood.

in the bottle: Rum! And a scent that I know must be cocoa, but that seems more like a toasted sweet nut. Actually, it reminds me strongly of Nutella. There's something a bit sharp running behind which I can't pin down at this point. There's also a sense of unpleasantly over-the-top (sort of sickly) sweetness, like rancid fruit.

on wet: Nutella. 100%.

drydown: The Nutella has faded into a slightly food-y, cozy, very comfortably enveloping scent, which strikes me as the scent equivalent of being wrapped in your favorite blanket on a cool autumn evening. Wow, that's pretty evocative; I'm surprising myself a little. I'm getting a warm, headshop-y undertone which I think is some sort of musk, though that's not listed.

one hour later: I'll be going to bed with this on, so I'll have to start this review over another day to get the full day's worth of critique. G'night.

end of day:

compared to official description:

notes:

May 23, 2010

Lightning

The electric tang of ozone, marine notes, and a drop of sharp rain.

in the bottle: When I first smelled this, it smelled exactly like chapstick. Now, months later, it smells exactly (with no deviation) like an air freshener (can't remember brand) called Spring Rain. I don't like the scent. Not even a little. This is going straight to the trade pile. I know I should make an attempt to analyze it -- a scent is a scent -- but I'm too distracted by what I consider to be an overwhelmingly common commercial scent. I'm not feeling very generous today, I suppose.

May 23, 2010

Dirty

A wonderful antidote to an all-nighter oozing with drunken, addled perversion and debauchery. A fresh, crisp white linen scent: perfectly clean, perfectly breezy.

in the bottle: Okay, I have to say it: dryer sheets. It makes me think of fabric softener or dryer sheets; it's what warm, clean clothes used to smell like straight out of the dryer before I started using unscented laundry products. Floral, but it's that light, breezy, not-obnoxiously-floral floral that definitely puts one in mind of clean laundry. As a matter of fact, I'm having trouble moving past the laundry connotations as some part of my brain is now reminding me insistently that I'm behind on laundry and need to start working on that NOW!

I can't pick apart the notes. All I can really think is floral. Actually, this puts me in mind of a kind of jasmine. Or maybe orange blossom. A little sharp. This could give me a headache, I think.

on wet: Exactly the same.

drydown: More rounded now, not so stabbing-me-repeatedly-with-flowers. Actually, even more like laundry products now than before.

one hour later: I'm not interested in leaving this on for an hour.

end of day: Definitely not interested in leaving it on all day.

compared to official description: It really does have a "clean" feeling, but I know that's because of the whole "mmmm... fresh, clean laundry" connection. Psychologically, there's nothing quite like pulling warm clothes out of the dryer and draping them on yourself -- for me it's an instant mood lifter. Not because of the smell, but because of the feeling of clean. It's an enduring emotional scent connection for me. This is a great scent for someone who wants to give themselves an instant hit of "fresh and clean".

notes: To be frank, I stopped using scented detergents and dryer sheets (never used fabric softener) because I grew weary of the types of scents that are used for that category of product. It's interesting to see the connection between this scent and those things, but I in no way want to smell like this myself.

added to forum reviews

May 23, 2010

Dracul

Black musk, tobacco, fir, balsam of peru, cumin, bitter clove, crushed mint, and orange blossom.
re-sniffed on 6/24/10

in the bottle: Amazingly, I pick out most of the listed scents. This is uncommon, but it might be because the components are uncommonly strong and distinctive. Tobacco. A warm spice: clove. Something musky. A wood. A kind of catch-in-my-throat dryness; don't know where that's coming from. I will admit that I smell something that reminds me strongly of some kind of alcohol, but it hovers somewhere -- strangely -- between red wine and whiskey, even though neither is listed. Second try: Now I don't smell anything remotely like alcohol, rather it's all about wood and very strong clove. Really, this is predominantly clove.

on wet: A little floral. Tobacco.

drydown: The floral has gone creamy in a vanilla-smooth kind of way. What I'm smelling now, at a slight distance, just 2 minutes later, is nothing like what I smelled in the bottle. If I put my nose right on my wrist and inhale deeply, I get the clove and tobacco, but they're ghosts. OK, clove and wood, in that order. There are definitely other scents in the background, but they're almost "transparent".

one hour later: The scent is dominated by clove, with a deep, dark undertone which is almost impossible to focus on -- I know it's there, affecting my response, but it's almost subliminal. I'm going to say it's the musk and tobacco working together, but that's purely a guess; I can't, in all honesty, smell musk and tobacco.

before too long: I can barely smell anything on myself. I suspect that the scent is just as strong (if my SO walked in right now I'm sure he'd notice the scent immediately) but my nose has become immune to it. That's disheartening. I wear perfume primarily for its effect on me. Maybe today isn't a good day to be testing. I'll probably have to revisit this one yet again.

end of day:

compared to official description: I've never, to my knowledge, smelled Balsam of Peru, though it seems from my research that it's a fairly common component in scents, so it'd probably be more truthful to say that if I've smelled it before, I wouldn't have know that was what I was smelling. Second time around, I detected no floral notes in this. I'm pretty happy that I didn't pick the cumin scent out of this. I like cumin as a culinary addition, but I always notice it at the top of every spice mix, so I need very little to get the full effect. It so easily could have been overkill, but I don't smell it at all in this oil. What I do smell strongly is the clove, which is fine; I like clove so much I've even been known to chew the plain dried cloves like candy.

notes: I started this a little too late in the day to do a full review. I'll have to come back to it. This is pretty close to gender neutral to my nose. Having said that: It's hard to tell when it's just me wearing it, but I suspect that I would find this drop-dead, oh-my-god-take-me-now sexy on the right man.

May 23, 2010

My Own Personal Skin Chem

I seem to have the oddest one of a kind reactions. If I have a scent twin out there I don't think they've discovered BPAL yet. I am seriously tempted to apply scents to my fingers from now on, the reactions seem better on average to the drops that spill there.

May 22, 2010

ebay and other stuff

I can't seem to resist making outrageous bids on ebay, for bpal scents that I've been wanting for a while. I guess I shouldn't feel guilty.....some of these things I've really wanted for a long time, and they never seem to come up in swaps around here. Of course, it doesn't matter in the end, when I'm outbid less than 12 hours after I place my starting bid (this was for the Holly King proto)! And the winning bid is more than twice what I was willing to pay. I was kind of surprised at that one, I guess I'm not the only one who wanted it badly! But now I have another auction that I placed a bid on, and we'll see how high that goes. I'm not going to raise my highest bid, because I've already bid more than I really should spend. So, we'll see. It's actually a scent that I already have half a bottle of, and this would be a back-up bottle (something nearly unheard of in my collection, except for Snake Oil which is for aging). In other news........I'm in the middle of my long stretch of work, interrupted only by being off Tuesday night, until the weekend. I'm looking forward to Tuesday and really looking forward to the weekend, although it's pretty far off. I bought an annual pass to the Newport Aquarium, because I miss the Zoo's aquarium, which was made into the manitee exhibit. The manatees are pretty cool, but the aquarium was always my favorite part of the Zoo. And the Newport Aquarium is not even that great.....there are some cool parts, though. I only have to go once more to make up for the cost of my annual pass (and I'm pretty sure I'll go more than once more in the next year). Anyway, yeah.....spending lots of money when I should be concentrating on credit card debt. Oh well, gotta have fun somehow, right?? Oh and speaking of spending money, I made an order with Nature's Gift. I bought their Sacred emotional synergy for a room scent. I wanted something for a sort of peaceful meditation blend, although I already have their Meditation blend....and it's pretty awesome.....but I wanted another spiritual blend, too. I also bought some jojoba oil and something for my occasional dermatitis/eczema.....now I can't even remember which oil, LOL.....oh yeah, calendula oil for skin care. And I asked for some samples of their fir/pine essential oils. Can't wait to see what they send me! They're always really nice about sending free samples when I ask for them.

May 17, 2010

Just Imp Case

So I've been giving thought to the whole imp case thing. I'm not real big on the ones from the lab or their price. I could get a condom case (same dimensions) http://www.kyledesigns.com/product/CN/Cool...ed-Designs.html Or I could by a mint case, with dimensions of 2 1/4" x 1 3/4" x 1/2" which is actually a closer fit. Most likely the least expensive option as well. Good places to look being etsy and ebay. However, many have curved edges which may or may not work out okay for holding imps. There are also aspirin tins which are 2 1/4" x 1 3/4" x 1/3" but the designs are typically less attractive. My favorite option is my own design but I don't know where to find the materials. I would need a small circular tin with a height of about 1 3/4." I haven't decided on the diameter but there would be a metal circle like a cookie cutter on the inside. The difference in diameter between the tin and the inner circle would be just over 1/4" - just over imp width. The imps would go in a circular pattern with their labels behind the next few imps. This eliminates the wasted space caused by the labels in the tin, or the last imp's label at any rate. If the tin height was partially the cap, then once the cap was removed the height of the imps would then exceed the tin making them easy to pull out. Additionally you should be able to pull each one up enough to read the label with out removing it completely. I was also thinking that inside the inner circle there could be a design of some sort. So ya, that's what I was thinking of as I fell asleep last night.

May 16, 2010

They're on the Way

So I have a bottle of Snake Oil on the way, Amazon says it was shipped already! I just ordered a bottle each of Kali and Josie. Still lots of imps to try from my ebay purchases too!

May 15, 2010

More zoo stuff

I went to the zoo again last week, and had a nice relaxing visit. The weather was really great, a little chilly but sunny and windy. I enjoy watching the serval in the cat house.....so graceful and.....willowy? I also love the feathertailed gliders in the nocturnal house. They are incredibly cute. It's funny because the nocturnal house is, of course, dark inside. At first when I looked in on the feathertailed gliders, I didn't see anything moving. So after standing still and watching for a couple minutes, I started to notice little darting movements here and there. They are like small mice, with weird tails that look kind of flattened out, which they use for gliding. I didn't see any of them jump or glide, but they were darting around and moving all over. They are so cute! I watched the Sumatran rhinos eat for a while. I love their eyes. They open their eyes so wide you can see the white parts. The zoo built these really cool sun-shades over the rhino habitat, to protect them from the sun. The insect house has a whole section that you walk into, and it looks like a greenhouse, and it's full of butterflies. There are a few different kinds of birds, too, including hummingbirds, my favorite. For a while I didn't see any hummingbirds but I was determined so I stayed in there for a few minutes, and finally spotted one. It was great.

May 10, 2010

beachbabealways' Blog

Stuff I Am Waiting On

I have to do this so I remember what I have bought/swapped for. Waiting on: spanked

beachbabealways

May 4, 2010

Journals

I don't think I trust the internet enough to really write about some of the things going on right now. I certainly wouldn't post on facebook, and not really on livejournal either, which is dying a slow death anyway (unless I just need to update my friends list a little bit, which is possible). Anyway, change is in the air, and I'm kind of excited. I seem to have gotten stuck in a loop of insanity, repeating really stupid behaviors, and I'm finally feeling like I might be breaking free. One thing I know for sure is I can't keep doing the same things over and over, and expect things to somehow magically become better.....without changing what I'm doing. I don't want to be too cryptic but again, it's not really stuff that I want to post on the internet....even on a 'private' forum. My point (and I do have one) is that I'm really lucky right now. I have 2 real paper journals that are only partially filled, with plenty of room left in them. Also, I bought a membership to our zoo, which is right next door to my apartment building. It is so, so easy to just walk a block, show my card, and walk right in.....skipping the whole line for tickets. And as long as it's not too crowded, it is a great place to walk for some exercise, and sit and relax, while writing in my journal. I'm off work tomorrow night so I think I'm going to take a little trip to the zoo and say hi to my animal friends. The cat house makes me a little sad, though, because I feel like the cats would be happier outdoors, with lots more room to roam around. I guess they don't know what they're missing? I hope not. They look kind of sad all confined as they are.