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    By Silvertree

    Please be aware that we do not permit swap-related content on profiles or in blogs. Please post this content only in the For Sale, Swaps, and Wanted forums, or in the Wishlists topic. ~from Swapping 101  Thanks!
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Filling the Periodic Table
 

Garden at the one-month mark.

For those of you that are following the progress of my garden, here are this week's pictures: Please excuse my complete inability to work the autofocus this week.   The enormous tomato: (It's a one-plant jungle) I finally did give in and loosely tie the stems to the hanging hook with old knee-highs, since I was starting to feel concerned that the stems were getting *really* heavy.   Here's a cluster of little tomatoes:   And here's the tomato I showed you guys last week. It's cherry-sized, but instead of being round, it's shaped like a regular tomato!   The experimental tomato, however, is still languishing. Not dead, but not really all that alive either:   The pepper is taking off, it's covered in buds, and I'm really looking forward to having a huge crop of habaneros in a month or two:   The strawberries? The plants look healthy enough, but they are still not growing flowers:   Finally, check out my morning glories/moonflowers: (I've made them a trellis out of jute twine) Despite the look of the picture, they are not speeding acoss my balcony at 60mph!
antimony

antimony

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Scents and Wisdom
 

Van Van and skeletal librarians

It's been a long while since I posted, but an update on the voodoo - Van Van is wonderful stuff, and so is Horn of Plenty. I have managed to land a job with the sort of income that means that I will be able to spend some serious money on my addiction if I so desire, so I've had to think carefully.I looked over the TAL site and I have found what I think will be a good first order from them - a range of oils that will assist me in things that I want to do. Hymn to Pan will be about keeping me on the creative/designing road while I'm working. Concentration is for me, but also for my boyfriend, who has ADD and finds it hard to focus even with medication. I'd love to try him on this, because he's a fan of BPAL as well. White light is a general all purpose purification blend, and I will introduce it to the group of people I''m about to begin practicing ritual magic with. Attuning is also for this purpose, and will be for waking up to the energies - i'm think of one person in particular who insists that she's psychic as a rock, but it'll be useful to all of us.when I'll get these oils, I'm not sure. I am looking forward to buying Chaos Theory III, and I will have a collection of Salon imps coming to me, so that might drastically change my plans for my next BPAL purchase.but the skeletal librarian t-shirt? oh, want. I've wanted that one above all the others for ages and ages. I'm going to buy it, with my first paycheque, and that's the end of the discussion.The Efficacy of Van Van led me to investigate luckymojo, and I found the recipe to mix your own. I think I like this particular touch for Van Van, so I'm going to buy the EO's and make my own batch, and use it as floorwash and in baths and anywhere I need a good cleanup. I'm going to have to banish and purify my house really soon, and I'd like to do it with Van Van. since I will need to have this stuff in enormous quantities, it's better (and more economical) for me to make it myself. I mean, I need this in the record executive needs a huge bottle of snake oil once a month kind of way, except for ritual as well as beauty purposes.my effects with High John the Conqueror will have to wait - as soon as I got the imp I knew there was someone who was going to need it more, so I gave that imp to him. I also got a little imp of Mercury, and I'm going to save it for anointing when I need to write - that's what I wanted Mercury for.Last Bpal Acquired: Mercury, High John the ConquerorLast Bpal Worn: TezcatlipocaPlanned Bpal Buys: Chaos Theory III, Osun, The Caterpillar, Aunt Caroline's Joy MojoPlanned TAL Buys: Hymn To Pan, Concentration, White Light, AttuningPlanned Trading Post Buys: Skeletal Librarian Tee (waaaaant)
Athena's Owl

Athena's Owl

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Scents and Wisdom
 

some Voodoo, there

I only own two voodoo blends: Horn of Plenty and Van Van.   I wore Van Van last night before going to bed. when I woke up in the morning my luck had uncrossed itself. I can move forward now. between that and the fact that Van Van oil has vetiver in it I am completely interested in voodoo blends, now.   I've decided to try Horn of Plenty the next time I'm working on increasing my prosperity, as that is what it's for.   I suppose this post is specifically my wishlist for GC voodoo blends, then:   Aunt Caroline's Joy Mojo Block Buster Chuparosa Has no Hanna Queen Red Devil Water of Notre Dame Wolf's Heart   Last Bpal Acquired: Dia de los Muertos, 2005 blend Last Bpal Worn: Dia de los Muertos, 2005 blend Planned Bpal Buys: Salon Decant Circle, full set
Athena's Owl

Athena's Owl

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Denise's Cool Blog
 

Inventory!

I needed to do a little "inventory", to see what i have kept with all the sales/swaps I have gone through!   LE 5mls   A Demon in My View: Annabel Lee the Evening Star Al-Araaf spirits of the dead   Yule: Snow White 2005 MidWinter's Eve 2005 (x2) lick it nuclear winter yuletide '05 stardust   Carnivale Noir: Bearded Lady house of mirrors kunstkammer freak show   Maelstrom: Berenice ligeia Morella Montresor Fortunato   A Little Lunacy: Fruit Moon Beaver Moon Harvest Moon Peony Moon   Halloween spooky the haunted palace pumpkin patch 1-2-3   Various: the Peacock Queen Mi-Go Brain Canister Enraged Bunny Musk Beltane 2005 pink phoenix tulzcha harvest moon devil's night queen of diamonds Smut   GC 5mls   Sin & Salvation: Dirty Sea of Glass Roadhouse   Bewitching Brews: Empyreal Mist the Hesperides Leanan Sidhe   Funereal Oils: Embalming Fluid   Mad Tea Party: Frumious Bandersnatch 2-5-&-7 Tigerlily the Unicorn the Dormouse   Wanderlust Machu Picchu   Diabolus Kitsune-tsuki Dracul   Love Potions La Belle Au Bois Dormant   Excolo Aizen-Myoo   Rappaccini's Garden Sundew   coming soon: litha, hungry ghost moon, chaos theory 3, dunwich, chiroptera, sepulcher, arkham revisited, , herr drosselmeyer, old yerevan, thunderbird, city in the sea   LE/DC Imps   Halloween: Trick or Treat   A Demon in My View: the City in the Sea   Carnivale Noir: gypsy queen   Yule: Gingerbread Poppet   Maelstrom: Usher   A Little Lunacy budding moon storm moon   Celestials: Virgo   Naughty/Nice Lump of Coal snow angel   Various: 13 Dios de Los Muertos 2004 the Perfumed Garden beatrice   Single Notes honeysuckle     TAL Decants blessing of isis attuning concentration astral travel   coming soon: hand of hermes, white light, temple celtic, bastet's laughter   GC Imps   aglaea ophelia persephone polyhymnia thaleia titania tweedledee utrennayaya yerevan amsterdam antony baneberry baron samedi delirium dracul x2 endymion (x3) hamadryad hell's belle kumiho megeara the mock turtle's lessons x2 namaste neo-tokyo the raven chuperosa the apothecary xiuhtecuhtli phantom queen bon vivant baobhan sith olokun eve envy Tenochititlan the hanging gardens shattered swank tempest shanghai szepasszony dorian gluttony kuang shi   coming soon: aizen-myoo, the dormouse, dorian, danube, leanan sidhe, phobos,
eviltemptressdq

eviltemptressdq

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Filling the Periodic Table
 

Evolution in rant form

I've been on the forum forever. Like, I joined when it wasn't even bpal.org yet. I have a double-digit member number, and what looks like a ton of posts, but when you spread it out over how long I've been here... Anyway, the forum has gotten huge, and I don't feel like I connect very much anymore. I feel like the bulk of the community (at least the people talking) are students or artists, or whatever. And my spreadsheet-jockey, buisiness-casual lifestyle really doesn't fit in.   And the funny thing is, I feel like I used to. Certainly the community has opened up to wholeheartedly embrace all kinds of people, but every thread that bashes private colleges or higher education just turns my stomach. Every thread that dumps on people essentially for having disposable income and then, gasp, spending it! Maybe I'm just being over-sensitive, but I'm not taking away from anyone else by being successful, and the pattern of every time lifestyle/socioeconomic class/income/etc comes up in a thread, the undercurrent is that is is somehow inherently immoral to be well off just irritates the crap out of me. I work hard, have a valuable skill, and made some good choices. I earned my good life.   I did not grow up rich. I did not grow up priveledged. We moved to the US when I was a little kid, My dad was a professor at a state college, and my mom was a post-doc. But they worked hard, and I learned a lot about what it takes to "make it."   I am not evil. I am envionmentally conscious. I drive a fairly fuel-efficient car, and live close to work so I won't have a crazy commute. I grow vegetables on my balcony. I believe in universal access to health care, and education. I believe in having a social safety net. But I also believe that once you give everyone the same opportunity for success, that's it. People deserve the same opportunities, they don't deserve the same outcomes. Your life is what you make of it. My life is what I made of it too.   I don't know what brought this on... Certainly not a specific thread recently... I guess I'm just feeling like I like it a lot better over here on the blog side where the community is a lot smaller, and we're all following each other's lives in a personal way. Over here, I don't feel reduced to a cartoon yuppie. I don't feel like a freak for my "egg brain" I don't feel like I'm making anyone else feel bad about themselves over here, either. Grr.
antimony

antimony

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circe_blue's Blog
 

Mint Car

...so yeah, I didn't know what to title this entry so I called it the first thing that popped into my head. I do The Cure. ******************* Weird Dreams:   I really need to stop reading historical non-fiction before I go to bed. The other night I dreamt that I was a court Lady at Versailles and I was dancing with Louis XVI. His coat was silver and blue silk and it had fleur du lis on it. Anyways, all I remember about the dance was that he kissed me and it was **hot** . Yeah, very weird to get a hot kiss from a king who was allegedly socially inept. Even if it was dream-kiss. (For the record, the book was Marie Antoinette: The Journey by Antonia Fraser.)   The other dream I had more recently:   It is the very first day of graduate classes and I'm sitting in a drab, gray room. Suddenly, it's announced that we will have a pop-quiz. On the first day, crap! So I'm freaking out, and I find out that for this quiz we have to pick two songs, write down the lyrics and either analyze or critique them. So my two songs were gonna be "Shady Lane" by Pavement and "This Could Be Love" by Alkaline Trio, only I could not for the life of me remember the damn lyrics..   While I was freaking out, I find that I only have 20 minutes left to complete the quiz and just when I start to panic all over again, I wake up.   ******************* Tonight a family friend graduated from art school with a graphic design degree. He even designed the invitations that the school distributed to guests, which I think is awesome.   Anyways, to celebrate we went to have some Korean BBQ. And can I just say? MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........ There is no emoticon available that is drool-y enough for me to convey how yummy it was. I'm dragging the boy there next time, not that he'd mind.
circe_blue

circe_blue

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Sourball Ho!
 

The Last Ecstatic Moment with Lovely BPAL

I splurged and bought a Photoplay from November 1926 that I found in a soon-to-be-closed antique and collectibles store. I love reading the articles and ads, and there was a perfume ad for a company called "Cheramy New York: Perfumes of Youth." They must have spent a pretty penny on the ad, as almost the whole magazine is in black-and-white except for the occasional ad pages in color (the other side of the color page is Palmolive soap). The best part is the breathless prose:   The Last Ecstatic Moment with Lovely April Showers   When you have on a good-looking new frock. when you know that coiffure, make-up, and every detail is just right; when instinct tells you that admiring glances will follow as you pass; then approve the finishing touches before a long mirror and add assurance with springlike April Showers!   For April Showers, the perfume of youth, will lift imagination to heights of ecstacy -- give you joyful thrill of life and youth and conscious power .... It is a breezy fragrance; friendly -- eager -- young! You will love the rare, capricious charm of April Showers in perfumes, powders, rouges, jewel-like little compacts, and other necessary toiletries.   -----   Holy crap, where has this been all my life? I want heights of ecstasy! I need a joyful thrill of life AND youth AND conscious power. I don't even know what exactly that means, but I need it! I too want to be friendly, eager and young -- not surly, tired and old like I am now.   That does it -- I'm going to spray assurance on me and everyone else around, whether they want it sprayed on them or not. Oh, and I'm going to start saying "rouge" too.
dawndie

dawndie

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Fishnets and Frankincense
 

Sandra Bullock's hair and other stuff

My hairdresser does have a good sense about what is trendy, because she cut my hair into this cut about a month ago, and I haven't been entirely sure about it. It's a lot healthier, but I just wasn't sure. My hair does grow really fast, especially in the summer, and now it's probably a half-inch longer. Anyway, last night I walked by the TV and there was Sandra Bullock on Leno, with my haircut. Mine needs another half-inch or so to hit the same length as Sandy, and I have sideswept bangs and she doesn't. But I'm taking in the Sandy photos at the end of this month and instructing Brandi that I want to maintain at Sandy's length. Same cut, just a bit longer.   Sandra, you probably know, went with Matthew McConaughey for quite a while. What you might not know is that her next boyfriend was that my favorite singer and designated ideal cutie-pants, Bob Schneider. I am not very jealous of her about Matthew, but about Bob, oh yeah, I'm jealous. Not really, I just say "good for you, sistah!" Then she married Jesse James, the West Coast Chopper guy. He doesn't do much for me, but I think Sandra is a biker chick at heart.   Last night I was listening to Caroline Myss, and sometimes I find her to be borderline moonbatty, but in general I really enjoy her perspective. And that perspective is looking at the intuitive, mystical side of life, as seen by a really brassy Chicago broad who doesn't mince words. I was lucky to pick out the CD that I did, because it was equivalent to getting a good lecture from a friend who pulls no punches. I am not going to lay all my garbage (or as I like to say it in this context, "garh-bhage") on you, but I really need to get my shit together. If I would detail all the complications in my life right now, you'd probably not believe me.   Caroline makes some statements that always help my perspective -- to look at the people in your life, especially those who have a great impact upon you, as someone with whom you have a sacred contract. It's not your job to figure out why they are there, or why you are there. And don't worry about your life working or not working if they are there or not there -- because you know what? You weren't born to live for them, you were born to live for yourself. And at the end of the day, if you're meant to be together, it will happen. And if you're not meant to be together, it won't happen. Simply endeavor to live out your end of the deal as well as you possibly can, giving respect to yourself first, and then to the others in your life. But don't take shit off of them if they aren't playing fair. She calls it living in the heart of the paradox, and that's very true.   Ah, should it be that easy. I'm there a lot of the time, but then there's always a person or two who are huge, huge challenges. And then I feel like I'm being eviscerated. It's such a lovely sensation. But as one of my other favorite wise women, Pema Chodron, likes to say, a lot of these really strong emotions have a shelf life of 24 to 48 hours.   So I'll wait it out, kind of like how I'm waiting for my hair to grow out to Sandra Bullock's length. Actually, I'll forget about how I'm feeling faster than my hair will grow, and I'm not upset about my hair, so what gives?
valentina

valentina

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faedesang
 

Scratch me please..oh pllllease..

Ok, more than a single itch..how about 43 of em?(yes, i counted) Thats what i get for going canoeing and not applying Deet/Bug Off..i was a feast for many skeeters and the sad thing is I didnt even realize they were biting me. So i just got done soaking in Aveeno oatmeal bath and it does feel alot better but the urge to tear & scratch my flesh is about to drive me to the brink of madness. I was actually crying cuz it hurt so much yet I had to keep itching away. It doesnt help that most of them are in clusters around my ankles & tops of me feet. Gargh. This always happens, last year I went canoeing and got into a patch of poison ivy and was in HELL for weeks and now this. Geeez. Maybe I should stick to winter sports and spend my summers indoors knitting g-strings or something.   Reek of: Devil's Night Playin' on my ipod: "A Different Kind of Blue" Passengers
Astburygrrl

Astburygrrl

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Shellhell - Hermetically Sealed
 

My New Grandson! Pictures!

~*~ Announcing ~*~ Ryley Norman Leach June 14,2006 8lbs 11oz. 21 inches   My first grandchild!! He is so beautiful, healthy and strong! Just Precious! I was so excited to hear that my son Jourdan and his wife Breanne, gave him the middle name that they did. It is in honour of my father whose first name is Norman. It is also my parents first great grand child as well, so that, combined with Ryley's middle name after my father, has made them as giddy as we are! My husband Bill, my other son Marshall and I drove down to be with them for a couple of days and it was such an awesome time!   Breanne was in labor for 17hrs!!! I don't know what I would have done if I would have had 17 hrs of labor and 45 minutes of it spent pushing! I am so proud of her. She was such a trooper and I know that she is going to be a really great mom!     A very tired Grandma (me) after 19 hours at the hospital!   Ryley is the most precious baby - of course I am not partial at all! He doesn't even look newborn to me with all of that hair. You can't really tell in the pictures but his hair is clear down over his ears! As for nursing, he was a hungry boy the minute he arrived and hasn't had a problem nursing at all! He loves to suck on his fingers too! He has been sleeping very well and is really easy going. It takes alot to make him upset enough to cry but once he starts, that boy has a big set of lungs on him!!!   Ryley loves to suck on as many fingers as he can get in his mouth!   I thought I was pretty prepared for Ryley's arrival but I wasn't prepared for the emotion! Just holding our beautiful grandson had me awash with so many emotions, I just sat and cried and stared at him. He is the spitting image of his father when he was a baby (except the long hair) and it was just like holding Jourdan all over again when he was a newborn! That brought back so many memories and emotion in just the one instant that I was totally overwhelmed - it was such a wonderful moment!!!     Spitting image of his father!   I can't tell you enough what a joy it is to have him here with us finally. He is going to be one spoiled baby by Grandma and Grandpa! He is so very precious!     Grandpa naps with Ryley   Uncle Marshall helps Ryley understand the finer points of WOW     The Proud Parents!   I am so proud of the kids and I know that they are going to be absolutely wonderful parents! Marshall plans on being the really fun Uncle and he just looks so natural with the ba bies! He is such a doll. Bill and I are excited for Christmas already! And now, the real fun begins!! I am so thankful for all of the people out there who sent their loving thoughts and congrats to the whole family! We are so blessed to have a healthy and happy new addition to our family and I want to thank you all for all you do and have done for me!
Rhowan

Rhowan

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Is Anybody Out There?
 

Finals, check

I need to go see a movie this weekend. I just don't have time. My future in laws will be here next week- I'm really excited to see them. They're fantastic. We're going to have to clean a LOT before they get here, though. A LOT. I also need to see about getting my nails done, figure out what is going to be done with my hair, and figure out if we're going to have 100 guests or 10. So, the wedding will be here in a week- yay! bounce, bounce, bounce- it's finally heeeeeere!   Next up? The divorce. Not mine- my parents. Yeah, apparently my mother isn't going to do it after all. It's this whole big thing. BUT. She might be moving into our very small place. Our very small place with two cats and a housemate already... and she may bring her cat, too... I don't know. I don't have the energy to deal. My brain is fried. And I'm so freaked out about my dress... I'm really hoping it's here on monday.
smallvoice

smallvoice

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circe_blue's Blog
 

Venting, etc.

So I think I've found a place to get my hair styled and cut. It's getting really long and icky so I'm excited to have it have some body again. I need it to be about 2.5 inches shorter and I think I want it to kinda look like this. Yes, I realize that's the girl from Final Fantasy and no, I've never played it before. The boy thinks this is hilarious because he is an avid gamer and has been telling me all along that Advent Children is a pretty movie and I'll like it. Yay, hair whoo!   *************** An old friend friended me on Facebook.com the other day. I am waaay too tired to be a Facebook elitist, so now I just re-friend anyone who asks including this guy. Anyways, I would normally think that the reason this person added me was to have his friend's list be 256,934 long or whatever the number is to beat these days. But, he also left me a message which was really nice. It was something along the lines of "we haven't talked in a while and I was just talking to so and so and I was reminded of you. What are you up to these days, etc."   The thing is, I'm not sure what to think. Our friendship did not end well. He was being what I thought (and still think) very clingy("where are you?? what are you doing?? who are you with? are you avoiding me??!") and we argued and I literally said to him to Fuck Off. Yeah, I know that wasn't very nice. But I am thinking of responding to his message, just so I can handle things more, uh, maturely this time. I'm not even sorry our friendship ended all that much. He didn't like any of my other friends so I was avoiding them to hang out with him. It was for the best, really. We spent all of our time together and I didn't like the person I was (and was becoming) when I was around him. I'm just ashamed of how it ended. I guess I have habit of burning bridges with friends. Another friend I just froze out after my sophomore year of college. And this person, we'll call her C, I've been friends with since middle school. I ended this friendship because honestly, I was getting really jealous of her and as a result I was getting depressed that I wasn't as pretty, beautiful, glamorous, wealthy, smart as she was. I got tired of being "the friend" at clubs. You know, the friend guys always target so they can get they prettier friends number out of you? I was tired of working my ass off just to get by in college while she was off jetsetting around Europe because she had a trust fund that her parents set up for her. I was jealous of how pretty she was with no effort at all while I struggled to keep my weight down. I still have all those issues actually, and thinking about them now still makes me sad. It was so hard to catch up with her during summer (she went to school in Europe) and have her go on and on about what she did that year when the only I did was work and study and try to keep afloat. I do think it was selfish of me to end that friendship the way I did. She was never anything but nice to me, but I couldn't handle my own crap and the jealousy that I felt. I'm actually thinking of contacting her again, apologizing for the way things went down and trying to be chatty again at least. I have a 5-year High School Reunion coming up this fall and I don't want to have to avoid someone because I can't handle my shit, ya know? Thing is, I don't even know if confident enough in myself to be "second fiddle" (at least in my mind) again. Anyways, my question to anyone who might be reading this long-ass post is have you ever had a situation where you just had to let a friendship go? What did you about it, if anything. Also, what do you think I should do. I guess I'm looking for advice 'cause you know, guilt agghh! *********** Geez, this was not the lighthearted entry I meant it to be. Here, I'll lighten things up a little: A man is sitting in bar when a guy with a giant, orange head comes in and sits right by him. He asks, "Hey man, what happened?" "Oh this? Well, I found this lamp and then I rubbed it. A genie came out and said I had three wishes. I asked for hot wife which is how I met her-" and he takes a photo of beautiful model out of his wallet. "And for my second wish I asked to be rich-" he then pulls out a $100 bill to pay for his drink."And for my last wish, and here is where I think I went really, horribly wrong..I asked for a giant, orange head."
circe_blue

circe_blue

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Is Anybody Out There?
 

Eye of the Tiger

Did I mention my whole math saga yet? I mean, the latest part of it. Just for the record, I don't like doing badly. So sucking in math this quarter has been a huge strain on my anxiety. HUGE. (Learning that I might be able to draw, however, has been priceless.) And I've sucked to the point where I'm not sure if I'll be able to pull a D-, which is a .7. I was pissed at myself when I got a 3.1 out of intro to Anthropology. That's just for comparison, so the sting of this is crystal clear. Monday, my instructor showed us our grades going into the final. Mine was a .5- I could lose my financial aid if I don't get at least a .7. This sucks. SUCKS! So I go in on tuesday, absolutely flattened because there's just no way I can see I'll be able to score high enough on the final to pull a .7; no way. She comes over again and goes, "Oh, I was mistaken. THIS is actually what you have right now." And points to a 1.7. Uh, that's quite a change. It also puts me into range for pulling a 2.0, which is what I need to move past college level algebra. Most importantly, it is NOT a .5!! Holy shit.   So now I don't want to screw up my grade. I want to do well on the final, and I have no idea if I can do that or not. I'm not prepared. I know I'm going to be taking it over again, but... it'd be nice to do it because I want to, not because I have to. Y'know?
smallvoice

smallvoice

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Do you have a flag?
 

I miss my dad.

In a couple of days it will have been one year since my dad died. This whole Father's Day thing is just going to be terrible for me forever... my dad died on June 17, his birthday was June 22, and Father's Day is always right around those days. Three whammies all at once.   Last year I brought the Father's Day card I got for him to his funeral. I had bought it before my husband and I went on a cruise to Alaska -- we arrived home on Sunday night to find out that he had died on Friday morning. The next morning we drove to Ohio for the funeral. I took the card and read it to my dad when I saw him. I wanted to put it in the casket with him but my husband didn't think I should. So now it's in the back of a picture frame, the one that holds my favorite photo of my dad from when he was about 22.   My mom is getting ready to retire and move into her parents' farmhouse -- Grandma passed away in February, and my mom is buying their property and is going to live there. So a few weekends ago my sisters and I were all going through all our old toys and stuff from school, boxing things up to take to our own houses, and my mom gave me some of my dad's and my grandparents' things. I have an apron my grandmother made, an ashtray my dad made and a bunch of his college books, my grandfather's locksmithing certificate, and a few of my other grandmother's ceramic turtles from her turtle collection. I used to have four grandparents and a father, and now all I have is a few of their things.   For the past couple of weeks I've been such a mess. No sleep, and bawling all the time. I can hardly stand to read the Confessional thread these days because whenever someone complains about their parents I just sit here and cry. And think about how much I would give to hear my dad's voice again. Yelling at me or anything, I don't care. Just to hear his voice.
filigree_shadow

filigree_shadow

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faedesang
 

I'll take you home...

Soo yeah. I almost forgot I had a blog =0 I've been watching TLC's Take Home Chef w/ Curtis Stone and I think I'm crushin' on the guy big time. Those eyes, the messy hair, the bod.. Ok, there is the chin that i'd like to punch but other than that..he's a tasty dish. Seriously, if he ever came home with me (and i was single) I'd say "oh, can you help me get my extra pots & pans from out of my bedroom closet? That would be grrrreeat. Follow me." I swear my libido has shot thru the roof since I've been off the Pill (2 months now). It's kinda nice to actually want to have sex and not just do it to keep your boyfriend happy, ya know? That may be TMI but hell, its my blog, right? My brother is leaving on Father's Day to bring back his daughter Alyvia, from Georgia. She's going to be staying for 4-6 weeks so we'll really have alot of time to get to know her and show her around North country..lol. Taking her to Noah's Ark Waterpark, going camping, zoo visits, fishing..etc etc. She's never been outside of Atlanta and her mother is a selfish twit(and thats putting it nicely) and never takes her anywhere or buys her anything. She probably wont want to go back home cuz she's gonna get spoiled majorly here. When she turns 12 in November Georgia law allows children to decide who they want to live with...so we'll see what happens then. I'm rambling 2nite and drinking mah mojitos 12 mint leaves & half a lime crushed w/ 4 tsp sugar, add ice, add 1.5 shots rum & add club soda to top it off..absolute heaven on a hot summer night.
Astburygrrl

Astburygrrl

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Is Anybody Out There?
 

Anxiety and wedding issues

So, my brother called me last night and announced that his mother told him that I don't have anyone helping with the wedding, so what all do we need done? Well, flowers. But it's wierd that she would say that, because all I've been hearing is that a million people have offered to help, so I set him straight on that. Flowers. Which will be the cost of the flowers themselves, but the arranging will all be free. Fine. So just now, I tell my mother what my brother told me, and she says, "Yeah, nobody's stepped forward to help." And I'm like, "Mom. Why is this the first I've heard of it? You've told me that offers of aid have been pouring in since September, so why would you now tell me that that's not the case? Why would you tell me that just 9 days before the wedding? Why???" Only not quite so dramatically. So she hems and haws and is like, "People just don't want to help anymore." Uh. Uhhhhh. Dude. My brain can't even handle this. I have my muthafuggin' math final tomorrow. No more stress. My wedding is in 9 days. No more stress. The rings arrived today and they're about two miles too wide. NO MORE STRESS!
smallvoice

smallvoice

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Gone Batty
 

I like pie

My cafeteria manager guy rocks! A few weeks ago I asked him if it was possible to get some Boston Creme Pie (yes I do have a fixation) as one of the desserts. He said he'd check and today he told me that it will arrive on Monday!   I loves me some BCP
miss apple

miss apple

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Fishnets and Frankincense
 

Summer wonders

It's summer! I know the solstice isn't until a week from today, but I had one marker last night and another one this morning. It's official in my world.   Last night I went outside at dusk and the fireflies are out! I'd seen one or two fireflies in the garden over the weekend, but it was during the daytime and I didn't notice them at night. Last night, at dusk, they were rising up out of the garden and twirling all over. The first sight of hundreds of fireflies waking up for the night always stops me in my tracks, because it is so gorgeous and amazing, especially living here on the prairie. We go through the harsh and barren winter, the mercurical spring, and it's hot and dry a great deal of the time in the summer, but you can go outside on summer nights and watch the stars rise in the sky and watch the fireflies repeat the act as they rise up out of the garden. It's just a miracle.   And when I walked out to check the baby cardinals in their nest this morning, I discovered that the first day lily of the year is blooming in my garden! Day lilies are named appropriately, since each lily lasts but one day, but fortunately they produce a lot of blossoms. The one that's blooming is a pink-peach color and it literally yells "summertime!"
valentina

valentina

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cranberry's Blog
 

cordia 1 - reviewed and shipped to Spacekitty

got cordia's package #1 last week (6-3 I think) - I thought I was making progress through the imps and then I get another pack! she used a film canister to pack them and they fit perfectly! what a great idea.   contents: Aizen-Myoo - reviewed Asphodel - reviewed Blood Countess - reviewed Follow Me Boy - reviewed Hunger - reviewed Yggdrasil - already reviewed Seraphim - reviewed   ETA: yay! this is ready to send on to Spacekitty!   ETA: 6-15-06, dropped this off at the PO today, so it's on it's way to Spacekitty!
cranberry

cranberry

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cranberry's Blog
 

travelin!

update 6-7-06   I'm heading out of town for a couple days but I'm bringing all my dupes of the imps I'm testing in the swap so I hope that I can make some progress through some of them anyway. (The originals in the swap will be sitting safely here at home, don't want to take any chances!).   I just heard from spacekitty that she dropped another 3 packages in the mail to me yesterday so it's going to be busy once I get back! wahoo!   ETA 6-13-06: got into town last night after some great fishing, but now the work begins! didn't get a chance to really test any of the imps I brought with me; I was hesitant to use oils on the boat as the salmon can smell....no shit! so - I've got lots of catching up to do! whee!   (plus when I went to the PO this morning I found anther 3 packages! )
cranberry

cranberry

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