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About eternalargus

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    obsessive precious hoarder
  • Birthday 06/14/1984


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    The Stomach Of A Rancor Beast
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    United States

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    Hobby farms, Freisian horses, dogs, gremlins, conservation, getting people to leave the damn wolves and whales alone, non-Orthodox Kemeticism, Anubis, Sekhmet, Khnum, Thoth, comic books, Dungeons And Dragons, movies, Christopher Walken, Henry Rollins, heavy metal, books, soapmaking, knowledge, snakes, scorpions, goats, gardening, herbalism, George Carlin, South Park, The Simpsons, Futurama, geekery, Macs, Linux, Pennsylvania, North Dakota, going invisible and pretending I'm a Romulan, kitties, history, polite debates, barefoot social work, understanding my own insanity, things what smell, organic foods, H.P Lovecraft, Douglas Adams, and so much else.
  • Mood
    It's The Smell!


  • Favorite Scents
    Moon Rose, all of Ars Draconis, Gluttony, Candy Butcher, Green Tree Viper, Boomslang, Loviatar, Jack, Anubis, Theodosius, Severin, De Sade, so many others... Foody notes (except for caramel), red and black musks, moonflower, metal, leather, Earl Grey, dragons blood, and myrrh all work well on me. I can't wear much cinnamon because it burns me. Satyr turns me into a ravenous psychopath, which means of course I want more of it. You give me now *makes grabby hands*.


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    "So, let's dance onwards a bit and take a look at this Gemini chart (same year of birth as sideviewhotel, and there are some interesting similarities--do you know each other?). Of course some of the similarities are to be expected--eternalargus is just a month and 4 days younger than sideviewhotel, gotta be some generational patterns going on). eternalargus is a Sun sign Gemini with Sun conjunct Venus in the 2nd house. Her moon is in Capricorn, and is flanked by Neptune and Jupiter. Moon is in the 9th house, and is in opposition to the Sun (even though it's a Cappie moon, it is in way early Cappie, and the Sun is late in Gemini). She has Taurus rising, with Ceres close to the ascendant in the 12th house. Pluto in the 6th house in very late Libra, trines the Sun, and is sextile the Moon. This is another chart with intercepted signs: Libra and Aries, 6th and 12th houses. There is only one fire energy in the chart: Uranus in Sagittarius in the 8th house. So, what exactly is our story? (something eternalargus might enjoy, because like Sagittarians, Geminis love stories a lot.) Self worth is a big theme here, with the Gemini Sun in the 2nd house: how do I establish my worthiness? Can we talk about it some more? She has here both Mercury and Venus in Gemini as well: so a multitasking communicator, someone who needs to move, needs change, needs spontanaeity(sp?) and hates the thought of being bored. Affectionate, and probably attractive, with the Venus conjunct her Sun. With some inner power, some strength of will, from the trine from Pluto. Sun in the 2nd house might also get into "if I have lots of stuff--oh, lookie, my pile of wonderful books...then I am a great person". Lots of need to figure out what she values, what's worth investing her life in, how she claims her place as a wonderful person in this life. People think she is very--earthy, stable, sensuous, responsible, perhaps stubborn, but very comfortable to be around. They may see her as perhaps a tad materialistic--focused on the good tasty stuff in life, fond of good things. Ceres is close enough to her ascendant to give that projection from others that she's a nurturer--but in the 12th house she may be kind of sucking up her own needs, her own tenderness, not willing to be vulnerable to admissions of wanting care from others (could be very caring OF others, but that doesn't scare her--vulnerability is what is scary here). Which brings us quickly to the Capricorn Moon (I didn't notice if you posted on the Cappie moon thread? Lots of Cappie Moons in the BPAL realms). And the Moon/Sun opposition (this is an unusual opposition because the more usual one for a Gemini would be something in Sagittarius). Capricorn Moons can be very deeply emotional, but please don't tell them to show that--they hold emotion in careful control. Now, for this particular Cappie moon something a bit different might be going on, with Neptune and Jupiter trying to shake the stable and responsible and "I Must Be In Control" Capricorn moon into both hopefulness ("come on, lighten up a bit!" says Jupiter) and empathy and idealism ("yeah, you can let those tears out, sure--see the sad, sad little puppy??" says Neptune). This is a fascinating (look, I didn't say "interesting"!!) counterpoise. Gemini would, left to herself, just chatter away (and tenderly) about everything, look at everything with keen intellect, and perhaps chat in order to keep feelings...at bay. Or intellectualize things (air signs are terrific at this). People with a Cappie moon often (but not always) had moms who thought that the best way to love their little kid was to teach them self control and discipline. For some this seems to have worked well, for many there is a sense of...loss, or suppressed longings. With a Taurus Ceres it might be that eternalargus would have liked a bit more cuddling and literally hands on care (but in the 12th house, she is suppressing that need). Still--with the Jupiter conjunct, her parents really did treasure her, and with the Neptune conjunct there may have been a touch of nice fantasy going on. This Gemini has the very interesting situation of having Chiron in Gemini, conjunct her northnode, in the 1st house. As if her whole challenge in life is to express herself, be herself, her best self. (the southnode is conjunct the 7th house Mars/Saturn in Scorpio.. there might be issues around self assertion, around learning to trust her own strength.) Chiron in Gemini often has felt ignored, unheard, unattended to--and often works to see that by gum and by golly I WILL BE HEARD...and also mentors anyone who can't speak for themselves. First house Chiron tends to be the knight in shining armor aspect--feels impelled to go forth and defend, care for, take on the windmills... Mars/Saturn conjunct in the 7th house--well, there is discipline, for sure, and energy, though the energy may work in spurts, in stops and starts. There's a lot of passion for partnership here, but perhaps also a lot of intensity, turbulence. This is the Saturn in Scorpio, after all, which is so in need of, so longing for deep relationships--and so likely to get spooked when things are going really well (and then there are fights..over little petty things...) Let's see what sorts of partners are likely to show up in her life, and where---Juno is in Cancer, in the 3rd house. Okay, so tender and emotional (that should be very interesting for the Cappie Moon/Gemini Sun !)...and...kind of like her brothers and sisters--there is a feeling of a family bond "one of my people"; they tend to be from her immediate environment. Cancer is the cusp to both her 3rd and 4th houses, and Vesta is at the nadir, the bottom of the chart, in the 4th house--she needs to get out of the cozy nest, out of the secure and tucked away "home", beyond her roots--from time to time--or she will feel kind of smothered. And with a 9th house moon, travel and/or exploration is a big need, she needs to be able to go beyond all the boundaries (with a Cappie moon, probably in a very disciplined way, but nonetheless beyond). Might be ambitious, certainly will benefit from travel and education and exploring different structures, different ideas, different stories. She has the Pallas/Black Moon Lilith conjunction in Pisces straddling the 11th and 12th houses. Pallas is in the 12th, and perhaps she..represses her deep understanding, her ability to solve problems, to see what is right and true. Black Moon Lilith in the 11th would connect both to her friends, the qualities of her friends and friendships. Aquarius is on the cusp of the 11th--original, eccentric people in her group of friends, and original life goals in life. But she may...somehow, through those friends and goals, connect to the spirituality/magic/strangeness of the Pisces Black Moon, to the mysticism (an inadequate word, here)...to the center of all, to what sustains us, finally, in our journey on this planet. How about the intercepted signs? In the house of work-for-pay, service to others, and health (odd how those connect, isn't it?) the sign on the cusp is Virgo. So, in the workplace, in service, it is her dedication, precision, devotion--all the Virgo qualities--that are apparent. Her need for equality is not apparent, and may be a source of struggle (actually, with Pluto in the 6th she'd do best either in control--as the boss--or on her own, working for herself, lots of autonomy). In the house of hidden things, it's Pisces on the cusp: okay, lots of lovely fantasies and day dreams and such. But how to act on these? Is there a way to spring the beautiful day dreams into something real? (maybe through the partnerships--that's where Mars, ruler of Aries, is) Right now (and for a while) transiting Pluto is opposite your natal Sun. This is challenging. (Pluto is meandering in the house of sexuality, death, karma, joint ventures, etc) The Pluto opposition to the Sun can make you feel really drained, as if everything that used to be..if not easy, then kind of okay--has become mysteriously terribly difficult. Things may be really irritating, things that wouldn't have bothered you a couple years ago. You may find it is difficult to get sufficient sleep. Please know, if this is in fact happening, that it is a slow aspect but it will change in time. Pluto is also opposite Venus now, and if you have artistic or literary or any creative leanings, you will be wanting very much to do things that are significant (so, this is a not terrible aspect). (can be a bit obsessive, however). Pluto in the 8th house might have to do with sexual relationships (kind of increasing the energy)...or, sometimes, with contact with deaths (but don't be afraid; might just be that your mind is being much more...pondering, thinking about deep stuff). Jupiter is transiting the 7th house, so..maybe opportunities in partnership. Saturn is transiting the 5th house (might be getting serious about romance or creative work or kids). Uranus is dancing around the 11th house, changes in life goals or with friendship circles. Since the natal Pluto connects the Sun and Moon in this chart, it may be that the Pluto transit is going to be felt more creatively by eternalargus, rather than all "oh no, must transform everything". Pluto does bring transformation, and although the process often feels very hard (*flashback to my heavy Pluto transits years ago*) the final results are most often very good. Let's talk a bit more, before we go, about Gemini in general, since this is such a Gemini chart. Gemini thrives on movement and stories and not being bored in the least. Often considered the flirt of the zodiac, Gemini means well--it's just--oh, look, shiny pretty person over there...! oh, my goodness, another interesting thing to do back over there...!!! Communication is key to Gemini, but this doesn't necessarily mean that they are all extroverted chatterers. They are delightful souls to have around, the Geminis in life (like pretty butterflies with great minds--oh, what an image). And...I wonder about that Uranus. As the sole Fire energy it would be considered a singleton planet, whose energy might just spark all over the chart. In the 8th house. Hmmmm. Well--could make for really sudden and intense karmic connections (or the feeling that that person you just met is The Great Soulmate...and way sexy). Could just make for a very open approach to the realm of sexuality, death and transformation, joint ventures, etc.. Probably keeps everything shaken up just a bit, which Gemini would enjoy (though the Cappie moon wants stability and will be objecting strenously). Might be particularly energized in the area of friendships and life goals. Nice.
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    Which Final Fantasy Character Are You? Final Fantasy 7
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    Squirting Cucumber

    In Bottle: Yar, that be a cucumber. More specifically a cold crisp one with a slightly bitter note. On Skin: Cucumber and watermelon rind. Dry Down: Huh, this one actually has staying power! Thoughts: I got sick of the cucumber-melon fragrances that all the B&B stores sell a long time ago. Too sweet, too artificial. This definitely is the best cuke scent ever if you want a realism. Great for summer, great for layering.
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    Opium Poppy

    In Bottle: o00o, I'm already liking this. Usually opium perfumes end up smelling like my grandmothers entire ancient perfume collection all rolled together on me, but this smells nice and resinous and smoky. On Skin: I'm one of the lucky ones who didn't get the bandage note. My skin instead decides to amp up the resin note and now I feel all dreamy. Dry Down: Sex in a temple, that's the best way I can describe it. This one likes me. Thoughts: Definitely a keeper.
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    Vampire Tears

    In The Bottle: Lemon bubblegum with cream. On Skin: Lemonheads candy. Dry Down: I smell something vaguely floral in it, but it's getting overwhelmed by the lemon. Thoughts: This isn't my style. I love the artwork on the bottle and if I were a citrus lover I'd be all over it (or vice versa, heh), but my skin is eating up the other notes so I'm left with nothing but lemons. It's great, but better on someone else. I think I'll give this to a friend.
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    One Of Those Days

    Title: Rubicon Artist: VNV Nation Album: Empires Praying for myself. These thoughts I try to hide. I have faith in me and hope this will survive. But it's tearing me apart. I can't hear the words by which I guide. So I must ask again who will carry me. I will not deny that nothing can defend from the helplessness that's cutting deep inside, and I cannot prevent the thought that nothing's real. Seems I've waited years for this day to end. The strength I need to feel, the pride inside of me, Are not there behind the face staring back at me. The anger and the pain of knowing where I am. I have come so far and I cannot return. Nothing I can do that I have not done. No words I can say. No truth left that I can see. So must I let this end so everything falls apart. Before I live the life as I have always done. Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong. Something I can hope for. Something real that I can see. So nothing falls apart. So that it does not end. I cannot return. I can't start again.
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    More Quotages

    “Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love.” -The Sandman, Neil Gaiman I don't hate love, but the majority of that quote is definitely something I can relate to. “I only have two kinds of dreams: the bad and the terrible. Bad dreams I can cope with. They're just nightmares, and they end eventually. I wake up. The terrible dreams are the good dreams. In my terrible dreams, everything's fine. I'm still with the company. I still look like me. None of the last five years ever happened. Sometimes I'm married. Once I even had kids. I even knew their names. Everything's wonderful and normal and fine. And then I wake up. And I'm still me. And I'm still here. And that is truly terrible.” -The Sandman - Dream Country, Neil Gaiman “There is a theory which states that if ever for any reason anyone discovers what exactly the Universe is for and why it is here it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another that states that this has already happened.” -Douglas Adams “I'm spending a year dead for tax reasons.” Douglas Adams
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    On hiatus from the forums for a while. (I hope it's just a while.)

    It does make my brain want to explode on occasion, but I try to use my family's patented avoidance method- Deny it's existence and hope it goes away. *hugs* I'm glad you decided to stick around.
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    In The Bottle: Awesome! Incense and trees, but no sign of Santa. This is definitely not a Christmassy tree scent, the the sea scent peeks up a bit to keep it light. On Skin: The resins come out to play, but not overwhelmingly so. I really like this so far, it's warm and comforting but not cloying, so I was able to wear it on a hot day. Dry: Very faint, but every now and again I get a whiff of that warm, inviting aroma. Wonderful!
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    The Megalist

    The list of wishlists: Clicky
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    Think Geek Wishlist

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    Adventures in Grocery Shopping

    Mmmm...cookies. Don't worry, I zoom constantly at the grocery stores here, and I use hemp bags so the clerks have already made up their minds about my sanity levels.
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    Shadow Witch Orchid

    A soft purple-smelling floral that won't get eaten by my skin and doesn't make me smell like a little girl!
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    I Love Quotes...

    ...I actually collect them. Lately I've been trying to keep them in this little book I got but I'm way too disorganized. Anyhoo, in honor of the new icon I made, here are some of my favorite Henry Rollins quotes: "“Somewhere someone is thinking of you. Someone is calling you an angel. This person is using celestial colors to paint your image. Someone is making you into a vision so beautiful that it can only live in the mind. Someone is thinking of the way your breath escapes your lips when you are touched. How your eyes close and your jaw tightens with concentration as you give pleasure a home. These thoughts are saving a life somewhere right now. In some airless apartment on a dark, urine stained, whore lined street, someone is calling out to you silently and you are answering without even being there. So crystalline. So pure. Such life saving power when you smile. You will never know how you have cauterized my wounds. So sad that we will never touch. How it hurts me to know that I will never be able to give you everything I have."” “It is no surprise to me that hardly anyone tells the truth about how they feel. The smart ones keep themselves to themselves for good reason. Why would you want to tell anyone anything that's dear to you? Even when you like them and want nothing more than to be closer than close to them? It's so painful to be next to someone you feel strongly about and know you can't say the things you want to.” “Half of life is fucking up the other half is dealing with it.” “When was the last time you wanted to say it all to the right person? To have it all come out right, to surprise yourself at how together you could be. When was the last time you ever met someone who made you want to give it all to them? I mean give yourself to them. Where you couldn't express yourself enough - like you wanted to cut off one of your arms to be understood. That's it - you would cut your head off to have someone understand you. You know how pointless that one is. You know how many times you've smashed yourself to bits on the rocks.” I think about the meaning of pain. Pain is personal. It really belongs to the one feeling it. Probably the only thing that is your own. I like mine.” “Why do you think the old stories tell of men who set out on great journeys to impress the gods? Because trying to impress people just isn't worth the time and effort.” “There are so many hammocks to catch you if you fall, so many laws to keep you from experience. All these cities I have been in the last few weeks make me fully understand the cozy, stifling state in which most people pass through life. I don't want to pass through life like a smooth plane ride. All you do is get to breathe and copulate and finally die. I don't want to go with the smooth skin and the calm brow. I hope I end up a blithering idiot cursing the sun - hallucinating, screaming, giving obscene and inane lectures on street corners and public parks. People will walk by and say, "Look at that drooling idiot. What a basket case." I will turn and say to them "It is you who are the basket case. For every moment you hated your job, cursed your wife and sold yourself to a dream that you didn't even conceive. For the times your soul screamed yes and you said no. For all of that. For your self-torture, I see the glowing eyes of the sun! The air talks to me! I am at all times!" And maybe, the passers by will drop a coin into my cup -Henry Rollins
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    Dragon's Milk

    In Bottle: Honey-milk and vanilla beans with a musky undertone. I love the color of this too! On Skin: Sweet, but luckily my skin isn't turning the sweetness sickly like it usually does...it's a soft scent, but not powdery. Dry: This is a bit faint on me, but I still love it for when I want something sweet yet musky enough to not warp on my skin.
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    Dragon's Heart

    Be still my dragon-loving heart! In Bottle: Warm, rich, and sexy dragons blood and musks with a small sharp tang of metal. On Skin: About the same, but I'm detecting the faint scent of red, ripe fruits. Dry: Just gorgeous and sexy muskiness.