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Whine/Confession Post

Damn you, Facebook. I was tagged in two photos and then I untagged myself because I think I look fat in them. I didn't want any of my friends from high school to think "Oh, she got fat hahahaha".   So my confession is this: yes, I am this self-concious/vain. Also, I hate Facebook newsfeed because it made the whole untagging thing useless, as I had already shown up on the friend's list recent activities thing. Grrr.   ************ I hate being this size. I hate that I've gained weight since college and that I delete all the pics of myself that I think are ugly becuase I think they make me look fat. Ugh. I know I'll be stressing about this Facebook tagging business all night.

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Weird

I was awakened today that 6am by my TV going on and off...by itself Ummm, ok. So I figure that since I am up I might as well check the school closings, since it's going to snow all day today. Well, I saw that my county has closed schools and went back to sleep, happy that I won't have to do this presentation till next week. I wake again, because yep, my TV is doing its thing. I unplug it and go back to sleep. When I wake again I double check school closings and of course, my county is NOT listed.   Man, I could've sworn it was closed today! What a cruel trick you're playing, weird-haunted TV!

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Venting, etc.

So I think I've found a place to get my hair styled and cut. It's getting really long and icky so I'm excited to have it have some body again. I need it to be about 2.5 inches shorter and I think I want it to kinda look like this. Yes, I realize that's the girl from Final Fantasy and no, I've never played it before. The boy thinks this is hilarious because he is an avid gamer and has been telling me all along that Advent Children is a pretty movie and I'll like it. Yay, hair whoo!   *************** An old friend friended me on Facebook.com the other day. I am waaay too tired to be a Facebook elitist, so now I just re-friend anyone who asks including this guy. Anyways, I would normally think that the reason this person added me was to have his friend's list be 256,934 long or whatever the number is to beat these days. But, he also left me a message which was really nice. It was something along the lines of "we haven't talked in a while and I was just talking to so and so and I was reminded of you. What are you up to these days, etc."   The thing is, I'm not sure what to think. Our friendship did not end well. He was being what I thought (and still think) very clingy("where are you?? what are you doing?? who are you with? are you avoiding me??!") and we argued and I literally said to him to Fuck Off. Yeah, I know that wasn't very nice. But I am thinking of responding to his message, just so I can handle things more, uh, maturely this time. I'm not even sorry our friendship ended all that much. He didn't like any of my other friends so I was avoiding them to hang out with him. It was for the best, really. We spent all of our time together and I didn't like the person I was (and was becoming) when I was around him. I'm just ashamed of how it ended. I guess I have habit of burning bridges with friends. Another friend I just froze out after my sophomore year of college. And this person, we'll call her C, I've been friends with since middle school. I ended this friendship because honestly, I was getting really jealous of her and as a result I was getting depressed that I wasn't as pretty, beautiful, glamorous, wealthy, smart as she was. I got tired of being "the friend" at clubs. You know, the friend guys always target so they can get they prettier friends number out of you? I was tired of working my ass off just to get by in college while she was off jetsetting around Europe because she had a trust fund that her parents set up for her. I was jealous of how pretty she was with no effort at all while I struggled to keep my weight down. I still have all those issues actually, and thinking about them now still makes me sad. It was so hard to catch up with her during summer (she went to school in Europe) and have her go on and on about what she did that year when the only I did was work and study and try to keep afloat. I do think it was selfish of me to end that friendship the way I did. She was never anything but nice to me, but I couldn't handle my own crap and the jealousy that I felt. I'm actually thinking of contacting her again, apologizing for the way things went down and trying to be chatty again at least. I have a 5-year High School Reunion coming up this fall and I don't want to have to avoid someone because I can't handle my shit, ya know? Thing is, I don't even know if confident enough in myself to be "second fiddle" (at least in my mind) again. Anyways, my question to anyone who might be reading this long-ass post is have you ever had a situation where you just had to let a friendship go? What did you about it, if anything. Also, what do you think I should do. I guess I'm looking for advice 'cause you know, guilt agghh! *********** Geez, this was not the lighthearted entry I meant it to be. Here, I'll lighten things up a little: A man is sitting in bar when a guy with a giant, orange head comes in and sits right by him. He asks, "Hey man, what happened?" "Oh this? Well, I found this lamp and then I rubbed it. A genie came out and said I had three wishes. I asked for hot wife which is how I met her-" and he takes a photo of beautiful model out of his wallet. "And for my second wish I asked to be rich-" he then pulls out a $100 bill to pay for his drink."And for my last wish, and here is where I think I went really, horribly wrong..I asked for a giant, orange head."

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VA Tech events

I must confess that right now the only people I feel sympathy for are the victims, their families and friends, the campus, and the shooter's parents. Basically, everyone but the shooter himself. Maybe one day I'll feel bad for him too, but not right now. Right now, I'm still in my angry stage.   On Monday morning while going to the post office on campus I overheard some girl mentioning "It happened at VA Tech" and thought nothing of it. I thought it was men's basketball ACC talk, and forgot about it until I opened up the CNN.com webpage like I do every day. I was shocked, saddened and angry. I still can't believe that all those people are gone.   As for the media, I've been trying to avoid most TV coverage because the sensationalism saddens me and of course, I question the wisdom of releasing the actual video the guy made to the public. (Ugh, I don't even want to write his name ) Yahoo.com has some quotes from it though, including one that has incensed me:   "Thanks to you, I die like Jesus Christ, to inspire generations of the weak and the defenseless people"   I'm not even Christian and this pisses me off. Jesus? Um, NO. I don't think the Bible ever mentioned that Jesus ever went on a rampage and killed a bunch of people. I suppose we can take this to mean that other people just as unbalanced and disturbed might attempt a copycat? That's about it. His blaming everyone except for himself for his actions angers me too. I guess I can't comprehend what drove someone to kill 32 people. Okay, you're depressed and troubled, but what does everyone else have to do with it?   I also admit that the first thought that came to mind after reading his play was "Wow, that was really shitty writing". Seriously, it sounded like a sullen 13 year old boy in remedial English wrote it. Someone mentioned in the VA Tech thread that it sounded angry, and on that I have to agree. Even through his bad writing you can see how frustrated and mad he was.   I don't know how to conclude this entry. I guess I just wanted to rant and ramble. Thanks for reading, if you've got this far

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Urg.

Dudes. My mom called and was mad at me becuase I missed one of her calls! I was out getting lunch and left my cell phone in my apartment by mistake. I didn't check it when I got back so I had no idea she even called in the first place. Also, she is mad at me because I've decided to stay at my apartment after I took my last exam and start packing a bit (we're moving out Saturday), instead of returning home right away. I can't stand this. This is completely ridiculous, and I have no idea how I'm gonna live with her for 2-3 months when I move back home (my lease wasn't renewed because they're renovating etc).   Also, a couple weeks ago, I transfered $8,000 from my savings to hers becuase she wanted her account to look good (she's applying for to own part of a franchise). She wasn't going to use it, it's just gonna sit there until they/she gets all the papers in order and then she'll transfer it back. Well, it's been a couple weeks, and it's still not back in my account. I don't think she'll actually use it/steal it, but I'd like my savings back now please. I'll ask her about it in a subtle way, after she stops being pissed at me for no reason. It was going to be my "Texas" money (which brings me to my next issue).   My bf of more than two years might be moving to Texas (or Ohio) depending on if he gets the internship (residency?) he wants after he's done with med school (spring '08). I refuse to do long distance relationship that is MD to Texas long, so most likely I'll be moving with him. I won't be living with him, but I'll get a job and an apartment in the area. I'm kind of looking forward to it, so I can get away and become more independent of my parents. This is my issue. My parents are super conservative and overprotective to the extreme. I cannot imagine how they are going to react when I tell them. In fact, this is the thing that I worry about the most. It seems that every serious conversation we have, ends with them yelling at me, becoming angry, and me in tears. I'm 24, and I can't believe I'm still in this situation with them. What should I do? How do I tell them?

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Update Wishlist

*Emphasis on the Wish!* (I'm trying let my credit cards have a rest, I gave 'em a workout by buying textbooks )   A Picnic in Arkham   Miskaonic University-"The scent of Irish coffee, dusty tomes and polished oakwood halls. "   Night Gaunt-"Their scent of their slick, rubbery hides is bittersweet, ticklish, and skin-creeping: something akin to yuzu, white grapefruit, and kumquat mixed with the snow-dusted flowers of Mount Ngranek."   Arkham-"A shadowy, unapproachable forest of maple, birch, dogwood, cypress and pine softened by a garland of New England wildflowers: bergamot, columbine, rue anemone, blue violet, creeping phlox, bloodroot, toadflax, and pixie moss."     The Order of the Dragon   The Brides of Dracula-"Unquenchable desire, seething lust, malevolent sexuality, and voracious hunger lurking beneath a shimmering veil of unearthly beauty: gleaming skin musk, honey and white amber, plum blossom, osmanthus, sandalwood, calla lily, and a light, sensual blend of Eastern spices."   Wilhelmina Murray-"Tea rose, white sandalwood and a flurry of pale, virginal blossoms, smeared with a smoky, blood-soiled blend of myrrh, hyacinth, Daemonorops resin, dark musk and blackcurrant."   Halloweenie   Devil's Night 2006-"This is the scent of autumn night, fires in the distance, with a touch of boozy swoon, playful sugar and thuggish musk"   Pumpkin Queen-"The Glorious Grand Dame of the Pumpkin Patch! Regal Egyptian Amber, red ginger, orange peel, mandarin, cardamom, fig leaf and warm pumpkin."   Samhain 2006-"Truly the scent of autumn itself -- damp woods, fir needle, and black patchouli with the gentlest touches of warm pumpkin, clove, nutmeg, allspice, sweet red apple and mullein. "

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School woes

School Woes: Good news-The apartment complex I'm living is fixing things up, renovating, adding hardwood floors, washers/dryers, modern kitchens. including high speed internet and electricity to the monthly rent, etc. to the units.   Bad news-everyone who is currently living here are expected to leave and not come back till Spring '08 once their lease is up. So I'm pretty much out of a place to live once May comes up.   WTF. Seriously. I expected that once I had signed on to live here I wouldn't have to move again, but now I do? If I had known that this was going to be the situation, I wouldn't have lived here in the first place. It's just not worth it, to go through the hassle of packing all of my crap up, placing it into storage and bring it out again once I find another place. And moving back in '08 wouldn't be worth it either since I'm a grad student, and I'd be leaving soon after. This is a college town so housing is rough. Every place has a waiting list, or doesn't rent to students at all. One place near this university has a waiting list that goes back to 2005(!) Ugh. It's just really annoying. Also, I had planned to do summer independent research up here, but because of the lease thing, I have to place to live, I can't. People who wanted a place to stay during summer looked a while ago, and again, I didn't want to have to move my furniture. This on top of other school things.   I had spent hours and hours researching papers and sent a bunch of them to my professor so he could approve them or suggest which one I go for. Instead the first line of the e-mail I get back from him is "Sorry, I'm not excited for any of these" and later "Try looking for so-and-so, I might have a copy lying my office". I hate it when a professor has a paper in mind for you to do a presentation on, and not only doesn't tell you what it is, but wants you to attempt to download it from the internet. Where exactly? "Oh, just google it". This last part is a problem because I do not subscribe to any journals, and I sure as hell am not going to drop $32 for one 12 page paper. And, my school's library does not have this particular journal. Grr. I think he should've just lent me that copy so I could photocopy it or whatever intstead of playing e-mail tag for 3-4 days when I could be doing work He has given copies of articles to other students before, and when I asked him about this one the last week, he just told me to e-mail him. Ugh. I'm really frustrated. I hate hate hate doing presentations and I like to be as prepared as possible, and it looks like I'm not going to be as prepared as I want. Arrggghghhg

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Random Thought Part II

Random Thoughts Part II     * I'm really excited for the Silent Hill movie to come out. Lately, the boy has been playing through 1, 3 and is on 2 so I can have a feel of the plot and atmosphere etc. I love it so far.   I am not playing because I've proven myself incompetent after getting killed by ZombieNurses, was ran off a rollercoaster track (and died), got myself stuck in a room with rotting walls (and died), and fell into an endless hole never to be seen again (ie: died) among other things. So after that I handed the controller to the bf. I still wish I could fill a bag with bacon/meat and thwap Bosses on the head with it, though. There must be something I could use em for besides distracting monsters.   The Whiney and Mopey Edition *I think I'm going to a rough patch in my life. Actually I know I am. I am currently at a job I really like in my field except I hate one of my coworkers soooo much and it's a pretty small office so it's hard to ignore her. The pay is pretty bad, and the cost of living pay increase we got last year is not helping at all. Rent is sky-high in this area and if you wanna live in a place that you'd feel pretty safe in you'd have to give up an arm and a leg and perhaps your firstborn (you know, for the utilities ) Basically, I wanna get the ^*&(* outta my parents house and the crazyness that usually forms between us. After being at college for four years and left to my own devices I've learned that distance does make the heart grow fonder. --I'm applying to grad school and the stress of waiting/not knowing/expecting rejection is killing me. --Sometimes I think my bf doesn't give a damn about me even though I know that's a crazy thought and it's not true. I'm just feeling not confident about anything right now, and I'd like to be someone else for awhile.   If you've made it this far, thanks for being interested or bored enough. Here, have a cyber-

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Random Thought

"Here Comes Your Man" by the Pixies must be one of the most cheerful songs ever to me.   A nuclear holocaust could be happening right outside my window, but if I hear this song it'll immediately be puppies and rainbows.   How did I find this out? I'm having a bad day (deciding whether or not to drop a class for which I will get *no refund/or anything back* bye bye $800, it's cold, wet, snowy, and we're all being unexpectedly kicked out of our apartments at the end of May), and this song comes on iTunes and for 3min13seconds life is okay.

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Pining for Peony

Where art thou, Peony Moon? ::waitsimpatientlychecksemail:: Next time, I'll be a smart girl and separate GC orders from just released LEs. Then, I can get some imps to tide me over till the Lunacy oil arrives. I'm gonna go check out the How Do You Plan Your Order thread. I sniffed some Peony-something at the Gap today. Smelled really soft, and pinkish, and nice and clean. Then I noticed that because the tester had been handled so much the oil was leaking out of the roller-ball thingy and soaked a bit of the bottle and my hand. Also, it had bits of dirt or something on it from being dropped on the floor probably. I hate that. What are these people doing to the roll on applicator?! It's not that hard to use! Tried some commercial perfumes also. Thierry Mugler's Angel Violette and Cacherel's Promesse. The Angel smelled alcohol-y and then morphed into B.O on me. Nasty. Ugh. Promesse was better but nothing that impressed me enough for me to buy it right then and there. Flowery, soft, young, didn't smell like some dude who hadn't taken a shower in a summer week.   Really excited to hear about Hungry Ghost Moon . Sounds great.   Watched the Office without the bf there with me or on the phone with me, and it felt a bit weird. Still funny though. "Jim Halpert, clean up in Aisle 4, laundry detergent." and the Dwight NBC public service announcement was fantastic.   Also, my cat bit and clawed at me yesterday. I bled. A lot. For all the times he's a big ol' pile of fluff and cuteness there are just as many times he's a Little Furry Bastard.

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Oh, crap

So I was really a hungry hungry hippo today so I went to the grocery store. I bought:   Strawberries (on sale! they were delicious) Bagels Cereal Skim milk Vitamin water(I may be addicted, they're so yummy. Also: 3 for $3!!) A box of SnackWells creme sandwiches   I thought I was being healthy. Well, hours and hours later, and 9 cookies later I glance at the back of the box. Calories: 110, Serving Size: 2 cookies Whoops. Teaches me not to check serving sizes first. I used to do it all the time, I swear, but the one time I forget! Bah!   On a different note, I had another fight with my mom today. Really, I hate it when adults act like children. I hate it when my dad always takes her side even though she bullies him sometimes too. I hate living at home with them. Oh, you crazy asian moms. Distance makes the heart fonder, get me away from here!!

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Obligatory "X-Files" Post!

Why is this entry called an "obligatory" post? I suppose it's because it my favorite show of all time and I'm sort of surprised I haven't posted properly about it yet. Seriously, I remember watching the premiere of the very fist episode when I was ten, sitting in front of the big TV in my parents living room. I was bored, and fully prepared for the show to be lame. Little did I know, I would continue to watch every week until I finished up my freshman year in college! That still baffles me sometimes.   This entry wouldn't be complete without a for the sequel coming out this summer. So, in anticipation I present to you a list, all in good fun (note: THERE WILL BE SPOILERS FOR THE SERIES!):   Top Three Unintentionally Funny Moments on The X-Files   3. "Scully Performs Science-Magic" in Redux-Okay, so you might be asking yourself "Why this episode? The X-Files has always tried valiantly to at least be scientifically feasible, but it's a sci-fi drama, why knock it?" I blame it all on freshman year biology in college. I had the privilege to be taught by Dr. Anne Simon, who coincedentally was also a science advisor for the show. She called our attention to this episode. Specifically, she mentioned that Agent Scully needed a Southern Blot (a method to check for a DNA sequence) results "by 7pm". "But that's impossible!" says the lab tech, there isn't enough time and they'd need a "blazing hot probe." So Scully does it herself. Cut to the next scene, and sure enough it's done! Science-magic! Dr. Simon kept telling us that she tried to persuade the writers to change it, but of course they didn't. Turns out, at various conferences other scientists wouldn't let her live that one down. And knowing how nitpicky and snarky scientists can be, I can't help but laugh/grimace every time I see this scene. Also: "Blazing hot probe" Heh heh heh.   2. "Mulder Shows Us His Ugly-Cry" in The Field Where I Died-C'mon you know the one. He's going through regression hypnotherapy to find out who he was in a past life, then out of nowhere, BAM! His face scunches up comically and then it's an Ugly-Cry, complete with close-up. Yikes. I don't care if you're super dignified Helen Mirren, if you pull an ugly cry I will giggle uncontrollably (and most of the time, inappropriately!)   1. "Scully Gets Attacked By Puppet Cats" in Teso Dos Bichos-Ah, yes, this one. (In)famous among fans for extremely fake looking cats Scully gets attacked by. Seriously, they looked like hand puppets. Supposedly, Gillian Anderson is allergic to cats, so fake "stunt" cats had to be made but damn, the prop department must've been on vacation that cold week in Vancouver, becuase those weird furry, stiff puppet thing? Not a cat! I submit this piece of evidence for your viewing pleasure (not much in the way of lighting-this is The X-Files after all, but still hilarious):  

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Nervous!

So Tuesday is my first day of classes for grad school and I'm more nervous than I remembered ever being for undergrad. Will the work be too much? What if I can't take it? Will I make any friends? Will anyone like me? What if I'm doomed to staying in my room for semesters at a time, eating alone and not talking to anyone??! Gah! ::wrings hands::   Kind of related-during our orientation we sat with other people who were in our department and one guy annoyed the crap outta me. He would not stop talking about himself and about his knowledge on just about everything. He's the type to give unsolicited advice when you're in a conversation with another person and he is clearly not. This poor girl was trying to ask me something like, 4 times and he kept interrupting! We are not talking to you! And he did not shut up about being "in the Navy for the past 5 years". Dear god, I *don't care*!!!! So that entire night I was just afraid that everyone else in my department is like that too, even though I know that's impossible. Only a small number of people showed up for orientation (it wasn't mandatory) so I know not everyone will make me want to stab them in the eye with a broken beaker. I know for a fact that he's in one of my classes. If I ever have to do a group project with him....ugh, just ugh.   My point to this ranting is: Annoying Guy has made me even more aprehensive, which I know is rediculous but still....   So, yes, I need to stop making drama outta little things and *relax*. I may swipe some Bluebeard or Regan on tonight to help that along. I'm starting to regret giving away my frimp of Somnus, lol.   Unfortunately, there's no way I can stay up to 3am for the update. I've been packing all evening and stressing out so I need sleep. But, I'm looking forward to waking up to new additions...even if I might not be able to buy anything this time around (gasp!) I'm back to being unemployed so.....I think this will psych me up for the fall season. Yay for Halloween!

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Mint Car

...so yeah, I didn't know what to title this entry so I called it the first thing that popped into my head. I do The Cure. ******************* Weird Dreams:   I really need to stop reading historical non-fiction before I go to bed. The other night I dreamt that I was a court Lady at Versailles and I was dancing with Louis XVI. His coat was silver and blue silk and it had fleur du lis on it. Anyways, all I remember about the dance was that he kissed me and it was **hot** . Yeah, very weird to get a hot kiss from a king who was allegedly socially inept. Even if it was dream-kiss. (For the record, the book was Marie Antoinette: The Journey by Antonia Fraser.)   The other dream I had more recently:   It is the very first day of graduate classes and I'm sitting in a drab, gray room. Suddenly, it's announced that we will have a pop-quiz. On the first day, crap! So I'm freaking out, and I find out that for this quiz we have to pick two songs, write down the lyrics and either analyze or critique them. So my two songs were gonna be "Shady Lane" by Pavement and "This Could Be Love" by Alkaline Trio, only I could not for the life of me remember the damn lyrics..   While I was freaking out, I find that I only have 20 minutes left to complete the quiz and just when I start to panic all over again, I wake up.   ******************* Tonight a family friend graduated from art school with a graphic design degree. He even designed the invitations that the school distributed to guests, which I think is awesome.   Anyways, to celebrate we went to have some Korean BBQ. And can I just say? MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........ There is no emoticon available that is drool-y enough for me to convey how yummy it was. I'm dragging the boy there next time, not that he'd mind.

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Milk Moon 2007

I'm posting this here until the board and/or my computer stops being weird and lets me post in the Review threads.   A fertile scent, generous, life-affirming, and swelling with a sense of triumph, warmth, and abundance: sweet milk, golden honey, fig fruit, pomegranate, dates, and white grape.   In the bottle: spoiled milk, bitter grapes and some kind of “earthy” smell, the figs? No honey, pomegranates or dates. This is not looking up, folks.   Wet on skin: OMG, getitoff, getitoff, getitoff!!!   Dry 5 minutes later (I attempted to stick with it): Baby vomit, ie: spoiled milk and spoiled fruit. And the figs. Apparently figs hate me and Milk Moon does too This blend actually made me quite queasy and gave me a headache. No, thank you. Man, I had such high hopes for this one too.   I also did a quick sniff of Tokyo Stomp (quick because I was still feeling nauseated from the Milk Moon) and it smells like yummy vanilla-mint frosting! Yay, something I ordered might work on me! I've found that the In The Bottle scent is a pretty good indicator of how it will smell on me.

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Living Dead Dolls

Living Dead Dolls Wishlist!! In no particular order:   1. Elisa Day   2. Dottie Rose   3. Bride of Valentine   4. Lottie   5. Kitty   6. Posey   Have:   1. Sadie   2. Hollow   Cute, yes?

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Keyboards, etc.

Ah, computers. They never fail to freak me the F&*! out when something goes wrong. So, at work today, my screen randomly freezes after "automatic updates" and re-starting. I try starting up again in safe mode, but still, Frozen Screen of Doom. I try again with safe mode, resolving to pick off the little F8 button and soak it in a beaker of hydrochloric acid if nothing else happens . Then, the screen reveals that I have a "keyboard failure". Instead of putting in a request for a new keyboard and having the tech guy come all the way out to check on my computer-related ineptitude, I take the computer's word for it. Okay, fine, maybe I somehow made the keyboard implode. Conveniently, a coworker quit a month ago. A replacement has yet to be hired, so her computer is sitting all by itself, not being used. Same with her keyboard   I switched out the keyboard and plugged in hers and it worked! Yay! But here is where my real problem starts. My ex-coworker was great, bless her, but her keyboard was positively filthy. Apparently, she liked to put on makeup at work. Specifically, foundation and powder. She rarely washed her hands after this, so all the keys had this flesh colored greasy/filmy stuff all over. Ew. When I type the last thing I wanna feel under my fingers is your Clinique Matte Foundation in Ivory. Also, she liked to eat at her desk a lot. So, when I shook out the keyboard I literally had a small pile's worth of various crumbs. Double Ew. And I still haven't gotten most of it out. They seem to be stuck in there. I took some Lysol and sprayed it on a paper towel to get most of the icky-ness off of the keys but there's still various bits of food and foil (?!) that I can see lurking and mocking me . So, yeah, I'm gonna put in a request to get another keyboard... because I'm leaving this August and I don't want the new hire to think that I left behind a snack bar and the makeup counter at Bloomingdale's. ----------------------- Another work tale from today (geez, it sure was eventful. At least as eventful as a day at the lab/office can be). I got in early, start working then I start to feel awful. I got tired, nauseated, dizzy, weak, and my head hurt like hell. I had to sit at my desk with my head down for 45 minutes. A coworker told me to go get something to eat (we work less than 5 minutes away from Starbucks thank goodness). I couldn't even will myself to get up at first. Finally, I sucked it up and just went for a Starbucks run. The thought of coffee, for some reason, actually made me feel even more gross so I got a green tea latte and a plain bagel.   Once I was at my desk, and I took a couple sips of the latte (not impressed, btw) and ate some of my bagel, I felt a whoooollle lot better. Turns out my stomach was just trying to tell me I was hungry. The thing is I wasn't even hungry! But my stomach was, I guess. Anyone else get that? The feeling that you don't wanna eat/you're not hungry but your tummy is telling your brain something completely different? Grr. Also turns out that I took my BCP waay late yesterday and hadn't eaten anything for about 13 hours. Those two combined probably was probably what made me feel like crap. Silly me. So tonight, I had dinner and am going to go to bed early. I can't watch Project Runway otherwise I'll never get to sleep (too much left over adrenaline from the show, lol).Ah, well. I'll just catch it on one the bajillion occasions Bravo reruns it. Based on yesterday's show I'm rooting for Katherine/Kathleen/Snowboarder girl or whatever her name is. for Tim Gunn!

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Kerei Ranting Ahead! (spoiler warning!)

So last weekend, my bf and I decided to watch one of the movies that he got off of his NetFlix list. The movie was a Japanese "thriller" called Kerei?. It was supposed to be a slightly creepy psychological thriller about a vain, shallow but beautiful plastic surgeon who meets an “ugly” girl who seems have some psychological issues stemming from her self-image. From the summary on the DVD case, the plastic surgeon’s life “is changed forever after they meet”.   Sounds good right? Lots of potential for creepyness. Wrong!   First off, lemme start by saying that hypothetically if I were to create a psychological thriller, I would not film it in a way that suggests that it is actually soft-core porn on Cinemax. The slightly blurry, soft-focus shots might confuse the hypthetical viewers and make them re-check their DVD and DVD case. Also, I would try to get more than $2000 for the budget so it doesn’t look like the entire movie is filmed in some guy's rented townhouse.   Also, I would make sure that the “ugly” character, a person so ugly that supposedly people stare at her in the street, is in fact “ugly”. The girl they got to play this part could not be the Ugly Creepy-Girl, because she was actually the Not So Good Looking But Maybe If She Took a Hairbrush to Her Hair Once in While It Wouldn’t Be That Bad-Girl. Also, for the first half of the movie she wears an awful wool hat to disguse her unattactiveness. This is what I would do: Get rid of the hat, the bulky coat, slap some cover-up and lipgloss on her face and brush her hair. There you go. And she wouldn’t even have to pay millions of yen for plastic surgery that would make her face asplode in the end.   In conclusion, do NOT rent this movie. For creepy Asian thrillers I recommend some Miike, specifically, Audition. Ooh, also, Tale of Two Sisters which is Korean and Shutter (Thai).

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iPod on Random

So, to copy borrow an idea from my friend's lj, I am posting the first 20 songs played on my iPod when I set it on random:   1. Bizarre Love Triangle-New Order   2. Thank You for the Venom-My Chemical Romance   3. Cradel of Forest (Silent Hill 4 Soundtrack)-Akira Yamaoka   4. Like a Man Possessed-The Get Up Kids   5. U-Mass-The Pixies   6. Not the One-The Donnas   7. Boarding the Serenity (Firefly Soundtrack)   8. Porcelina of the Vast Oceans-Smashing Pumpkins   9. Lust for Life-Iggy Pop   10. Lovefool-The Cardigans   11. Headlong-Queen   12. Qui Tollis-Antonio Vivaldi   13. L'Autre Valse D'Amelie (Amelie Soundtrack)-Yann Tiersen   14. Blister in the Sun-Violent Femmes   15. Tears on Fresh Fruit-Sparklehorse   16. Fall Victim-Alkaline Trio   17. Transylvanian Concubine-Rasputina   18. Hannah Hold On-The Get Up Kids   19. Prince-S-Sebadoh   20. For Your Lungs Only-Alkaline Trio ------ Phew! If I had actually listened to this, there would have been more than a couple instances of auditory whiplash I'm sure. Creepy, atmospheric Silent Hill music followed by the Get Up Kids? Queen followed by Vivaldi? sheesh. -------- Didn't get Harvest Moon I'm saving up for Carnaval Diabolique and the GC update later this month. Besides, Hungry Ghost Moon is already seeming a bit foody. The pomegranate does sound delicious though. I love pomegranate scents. Swank was very good to me.

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Hot Fuzz Advanced Screening!

Friday night, the boy and I went to an advanced screening of Hot Fuzz, a comedy by the team behind Shaun of the Dead, one of my favorite movies ever, and Spaced, one of the best TV shows ever The movie was hilarious. If you liked the type of geeky humor in Shaun of the Dead and Spaced, you'll love this move. I won't give away too much except to say that it's to action movies what Shaun of the Dead was to zombie movies.   We were so excited to not only get in (it was first come, first serve-the (free) tix didn't guarantee entrance) but get amazing seats- third row, center! Seriously, I'm convinced that Simon Pegg is my bf's heterosexual man-crush, lol.   Here are some pics (with the bf cropped out b/c he doesn't want to be on the intarwebs):   The panel L to R: Nick Frost, Edgar Wright, Simon Pegg pointing accusingly. I think this is where he answers a fan's question of "Whose idea was it to dropkick the granny?"   Me and Edgar Wright:   Me and Nick Frost who was adorable and friendly.   Me and Simon Pegg who told my bf "Hey, thanks for coming out, mate!" Fangirl squeeee! Sorry about the gigantic pic. It won't resize and the direct link isn't working for some reason.

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HGM, etc.

Hungry Ghost Moon-looks amazing and was all I would hope it would be. After reading the description I now want some ginger candy....So in addition to a 5mL of HGM, I ordered a pack of imps. The imps I ordered were Vixen, Sin, Katharina, Lolita, Antique Lace, and Euterpe. Hooray! Now, I'll just settle in and wait for my package to arrive. -------------------- Apartment Update: The place that I wrote about before is now not happening. Despite assurances that the place has "an extremely good chance" of going to me and a promise to call me later in the week, the girl did not call me back. Or returned my phone call and e-mail to her. I was angry at first, I mean, she is 26 and should know that when you promise to call someone to tell them whether or not they have the place you should call at the very least to tell them that unfortunately they won't have the place blahblahblah. Not keep them waiting in a weird limbo stage that could've been spent looking for another place to live had they known. Show some responsibility!   But whatever. I now have another place that is just as close to school and will be significantly less expensive once I get an apartment-mate. They'd get the huuuuuge (20 x 15) master bedroom and I'd get the smaller one. Mostly 'cause I dunno what to do with all that space. The issue of furniture remains as I have very very little of it since I live with the 'rents still. I need: -Sofa -Chairs -Coffee table -Bed frame -Mattress -Desk -Dresser -Rug -Lamps And I'm planning on going to CostCo, Ikea, Sticks N' Stuff for cheapies. I'm just dreading how I'm gonna transport everything there. ------------------------- I was gonna write about something else going on but I'm outta energy. Tomorrow! G'night!

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Hello again!

So according to this, the last time I wrote a blog entry was in May. oops. Not too much have happened since then and if you care, here's a rundown of events:   - I actually got an A Virology! Yay! I'm still super-proud of my grades on the final exam and the final project 'cause I thought acing that class was going to be im-fraking-possible.   -Summer: Hung around, spent time with the bf, got some reading done. Read The Stand finally. With my love of apocalypse-y things, I dunno why I haven't finished it before now. Oh, my bf (A) also introduced me to RPGs. We played Shadow Hearts, and I wasn't impressed. The last game I ever played all the way through was Mortal Kombat II on the Sega Genesis, so you can figure out that a) I've been out of the gaming loop for a Veeery long time and b ) this whole Standing Still While Your Enemy Gets A Turn at Beating Your Ass Up did not compute with me at first. SH had its moments though, and from the demo of Eternal Sonata I played, it looks like that might be a better "fit" for me. Also, I make a bad gamer because I am content to just sit there and watch A play. Seriously. This is what we did for all of the Silent Hills, and for Bioshock. Which leads me to my next statement that I suck at First Person Shooters. You know that scene in The Office where Karen makes fun of Jim 'cause he sucks super-hard at Call of Duty II and keeps running into and getting stuck at walls? That is totally me Playing through the first level of Bioshock all you would hear me say was "Ohmigod, how do I turn around?!" "Wait, what the hell, is this up or down?!" Urg.   Also during the summer, the 'rents and I visited Niagara Falls. I'll post pics and commentary up eventually.   -Now, I'm back at my apartment at school, being annoyed with myself because the reason that we've not been receiving any mail lately was because I've neglected to post my roomie and my name on the inside of our mailslot. WTF. Luckily, energy and cable bills have yet to be sent out, and the only thing I have to worry about is getting Netflix to re-send their stuff (i'm borrowing A's Netflix while he's away. He said he put a bunch of "surprises" in my queue so I was really excited ) Also, since I've moved to a new place, I am no longer within walking distance of the school This means driving and much more annoyingly and agrravating, parking. I hate having to car-stalk people or roll my window to ask the most frequently asked question in the garage: "Are you leaving?"   Anyways, that's what I've been up to. Exciting, yes? Now I'm off to go do more exciting things like, make coffee and catch up on reading for class. Ooh, what adventure!

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hello again

wow, my last entry was quite a while ago.   Well, the thing is, nothing much has happened. I go to class, I come back, I study like a fiend, then I either have my bf sneak up to my apartment to spend the weekend with me or I sneak down to him to spend the weekend there. All this sneaking around is necessary because even though I am 23 my parents would still have a heart attack/brain aneurysm if they even suspect I spend the night with the guy I've been seeing for nearly two years It sucks, and I feel juvenile for doing it but their idea of us hanging out involves them too, as chaperones I guess. Oh yeah, and the last time I was home my mother tried to convince me that the boy is cheating on me. Her reasons varied, but the gist of it is that we don't seem to hang out a lot anymore (to her her knowledge heh heh), he's spending more time away from me (he's in f-in med school and he needs to be at the hospital and is on call a lot), and that he's in med school and I'm not so he's gonna cheat on me with a cute nurse ("trust me, I've seen it happen"). I admit I let all of this get to me (I was stressed out that weekend) and I left home to come back to campus early. Ugh, all I wanted to rest at home where the people who live above me aren't partying 24/7 so I can go to sleep. *sigh* I asked the people in the leasing office if they could at least ask the people who live above me to put carpet in (the lease states that we are all to place carpet down in "high traffic" areas) but they said they can't do anything (!) and told me to go deal with them myself. Ugh, then why have it in the lease at all of no one's gonna enforce it?! I'm getting very frustrated. Sure my place is close to campus, but i'm thinking I would've been better off renting in a more residential area. And now I'm supposed to be working on a super-hard take-home mid term but I'm procrastinating....back to work I guess.... At least I get to wake to to an update! (maybe)

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HappyHappyJoyJoy

The last 48 hours were great. On Friday, there was hardly any work to be done, so I ducked out early and went shopping. I dropped $80 at H&M , then the boy and I went to a small Mexican place for dinner and Cinco de Mayo yumminess. I had the chicken fajitas which weren't all that adventurous but yummy just the same. Next time, I'll try the chimichangas if I'm feeling particularly indulgent (they're deep fried tortillas, if I remember correctly).   After that we went over to my our friend's place where she and her husband had about 8 other people over to watch bad 70s porn. And it was bad. Like, not even so bad it's good, just f-in bad. After awhile we all got tired of making fun of it (too easy, at one point a mastiff and a fun house mirror was involved), and just drank and caught up with one another. It was great. Had a wonderful time trying to explain "Snakes on a Plane" to my friend's boyfriend.   Borrowed a book from my friend (yay! things to read!), then came home and fell asleep. I was DD for my boy, and good thing too. We both knew he was a little buzzed/well on his way to becoming hammered because he got real chatty about completely inane and sometimes TMI things, lol. On the way back I spotted not one, not two, but four cop cars including one that had pulled over some dude who was in the middle of the Follow the Path of my Finger with Your Eyes Test.   Today, something happened that made the 48 hours even better. I got an acceptance letter to a Grad Program! YAaaaaaaaaaaaaay!! I'm a little (a lot) scared too, because this means I need to get over my horrible bad study habits that made getting into a grad program initially so hard. So, in celebration, I think I'm gonna make a BPAL order Perhaps I should wait till the next update though? Hmmmmm....   Happy weekend, everyone!

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Happy Friday?

So today was a nice friday because:   1. A coworker and I went to Target during our lunch break. Yaaay Target!   2. I kept getting compliments on my new t-shirt. It pays homage to my looove of horror movies.   3. The boy came over. He's been doing rounds/working at the hospital for all of the week. I haven't seen him in a week ::gasp::... I missed him!   4. Finding out that Nightmare Before Christmas will be re-released in theaters in 3D!   Not so great moments:   1. Watching Sleepaway Camp for the first time. It was cheesy-bad 80's stuff until the disturbing ending. Ew.   2. Me telling my mom that I'll be going to dinner and a movie with the boy tomorrow and her angrily saying "why do always go to dinner with just the two of you? We [my parents] should be going with you! " Dude, it's a date. With two people. You are not included because 90% of the time we hang around at home watching movies in your house with you around 'cause you're crazy-strict even though I'm 23 and you won't let me go anywhere. Argh argh argh. Sometimes, you just wanna be alone with your significant other sans parents. Is that too much to ask? I love them, but the craziness must stop   Only 39 days till grad school/moving the #### out! Wheee!   My weekend so far looks like it will involve a journey to IKEA to buy/scope out furniture, dinner and Clerks II date, posting a roomate wanted ad, sleeping. Have a nice weekend, BPALers!

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