angharad

I just wanted to add a .

I understand.

I'm an only child -- no siblings to be close to. My cousins are much older than I am and two states away. There's only so much stuff I feel comfortable talking to my mom about. I didn't have any close friends in high school, and I've lost touch with pretty much all the people I called "friend" back then, anyway. My college friends knew me best, but since graduation, we're all strung out across the state. After a triangle drama over one guy and two of the girls and a whole bunch of BS lies spinning around, not many of us are still calling each other "friend" anymore, anyway.

I have two people in town I can call if I need to talk, but the person who probably knows me best and whom I feel most comfortable discussing personal matters with is a girl I've met only once in the nearly ten years we've been friends online. We keep in touch mainly by email. I'm used to typing out my thoughts, concerns, freak-outs, etc, to her. It carries over naturally into blogs. I just have so much trouble finding the spoken words to express this stuff on the rare occasion I actually do call up a friend to talk. It's easier to type it out.