As I was adding up numbers today, I began to think about math. I know lots of kids piss and moan to their parents about how they will never use math, and such.
I use math every day, at least at work. Of course, I do have my handy dandy calculator to help me out.
But the more I thought about it, I realized we use math in play too. If I didn't know how to add and multiply, I'd have no idea how much damage I did to the bad guys in the roleplaying campaign I play in.
I feel slightly bad, and greedy... but I love presents!
I, of course, got a lot of neat things for my bridal shower this past weekend, but it sucks because I couldn't taken hardly anything back with me because I was flying and only had a large-ish duffel bag (I didn't want to mess with checking luggage in).
Luckily, my sister had the foresight to just mail my presents, and put pictures in the card she gave me. So I have a brand new spice rack (with spices in it!) and a 4 canister set (which I plan on putting flour and sugar in two of them).
Todd is home sick (he's got a nasty stomach bug), and emailed me that we had a package. I called him, and had him open it while I was on the phone (work is dull, I wanted a little excitement )
We are now the proud owners of a 6 mixing bowl set! It was sent by someone who couldn't make my shower.
I really hope people send us wedding presents in the mail, so we don't have to haul all the presents back from Michigan... and because I love packages with presents in them!
I'm tired and cranky, and I did a horrible thing.
I bitched to Todd about his parents, about things I thought he agreed with, and now seemingly he is angry with me.
So, now I'm crying at work, and I just feel like the world's most horrible person.
The worst thing, is I won't really get to talk to him until Friday, because our differing schedules, and I have no friends to really vent to.
I'm just worn out, tired, and seemingly everyone (including Todd) thinks I shouldn't be. Planning a wedding by yourself is hard, and my job is hard and stressful too. But no-one thinks that I need or deserve a break, which is what this past weekend was suppose to be..
My first job in the company I currently work in was the best job in the world. I loved it so much, but I was only temping for two ladies who were out on materinty leave.
I bawled on my last day, on the way home from work, because I loved this job so much.
My boss thought I was a great worker and he tried to A) keep me in his department or keep me in the company.
I'm still in the company, but I don't like my current job nearly as much. Plus my boss in the old job was great, and my current boss is too busy to do much of anything besides sit in meetings.
I just got a company wide email that one of the ladies who had a baby is leaving, tomorrow. Since this is the first I've heard of it, I'm guessing that they have someone else taking her place.
I told my old boss that I would come back in a moment's notice, but I guess that's not going to happen.
I sent him an email - to see if her position was filled. I know if I could go back there, I would have a wonderful job, with wonderful co-workers, and I'd be hired in right away.
Because my mindset is of a depressed one, I feel that someone else is already working in her place, and it makes me want to cry. I can't even apply for the posting for her job, because I'm not hired in.
On the way into work this morning, I heard about the foiled terrorist plot that has shut down the big airport in London, and has made changes come about even over here, about what you can or cannot have in a carryon.
This makes me very nervous when I think about flying again. I'm really hoping to talk Todd out of flying to Disney, since it would be a waste of money. But, we are going to have to fly, when we go to Europe in 2008.
This whole thing also effects my job, as parts from overseas are air freighted in. I even have a supplier in England, and the parts I get from there are air freighted from London. I'm glad that I wasn't needing a shipment to go out today, and hopefully the airport will be back in business soon.
Now, on to bridezillas!
There is a show on WE that is called 'Bridezillas'. I tape it every Sunday night, and usually watch it on Monday. A lot times the brides that are featured on the show, are being unreasonable and overly stressing themselves out, but usually calm down once the ceremony is over.
Not the girl on last Sunday's episode. She was pissed off her entire wedding day. She had a pretty decent reason to be pissed (her in-laws were late, causing her wedding to start an hour and a half late), but I would hate to be that bride and look back at the video and see how unhappy I was on my wedding day.
Yes, I'm pretty stressed out over everything right now (though honestly work is more a stressor than the wedding right now), but I'm going to be happy and enjoy my special day. And I don't think I've ever been as unreasonable as the brides on 'Bridezilla'.
It could be the time of year, but I've been feeling sad and unwanted the last couple of days.
Sadness comes from the fact, mostly, that my dad has sold my childhood home. I'm a little sad that I haven't been there since April 2005, and I won't see it before he sells it. And of course my mom's deathday (and birthday) coming up very soon makes me sad too.
The unwanted comes from wanting to go to various meet and sniffs, but not feeling like anyone really wants me to come.
Of course, not getting enough sleep and having to come to work on a Saturday leads to these feelings as well.
When I was in college, this is how my typical Saturday would go.
I'd be up at 4 am, so I could be to work at 5 am (I worked at McDonald's). I would work until about noon, then I'd head home.
I've veg around the house until about 3:30, then it would be time to get ready for the LARP (live action role play).
We would LARP from about 5 until midnight, and then we would go to Lil Chef or Shoney's for food.
Afterwards, sometimes a group of people would end up at my townhouse, and we talk until 4 am.
I wonder sometimes how I managed to do that!
Now I usually sleep in until about 9 or 10 am, clean the house, run errands. In the evenings, Todd and I will watch a movie, but I'm usually ready to go to sleep by 10 pm.
Sad, isn't it?
I feel bad that:
I didn't make the picture slideshow on my cousin's Myspace page, and that there are two pictures of my selfish sister on there.
my husband's eBay auctions aren't going to sell.
my kitty loves my husband more than me.
my mom is gone, and lots of people still have theirs.
I tend to go through phases where I'm highly interested in one television show, or one series of books.
Currently, it's 7th Heaven.
My husband had watched it much longer than me, and when we started living together, we'd watch it on and off. This winter though, I started to watch it faithfully every Monday.
I found a used copy of Season 1 at a game store, and it sat on my shelf for a while. I picked it up and started watching it a couple of weeks ago.
I was watching it nearly every day, and I went through Season 1 pretty quick, so I went to eBay to find a copy of Season 2.
I, against my better judgement, bid on a copy, and won, and it arrived yesterday. So, there will be lots of 7th Heaven-ness at my house tonight.
I don't know what I'll do after I finish Season 2 though... Season 3 isn't on DVD yet.
